I Think I’m Ruined???
TLDR: My wife what seemed out of nowhere gave me my first sissygasm AND made me cum massively a second time. I can’t think about anything else since it happened. Am I ruined??
I (27M) am a femboy and have been feminizing myself slowly as I feel comfortable with my body. I always fantasize about getting filled and seem to squirm in my panties when I think hard enough about it.
I do have a wife who loves me and supports me fully. She has done everything I have asked in accommodating me, and I love her endlessly. However, I have troubles fully opening up and feeling the joy and pleasure of my fem side. I only have really been able to enjoy it by myself/masturbating.
Where I am COMPLETELY thrown is my wife over the weekend fucked me with our strap. We have used it before, but my comfortability has made it hard to enjoy in the past. HOWEVER, everything changed this last weekend.
My wife and I both took edibles and started touching/fooling around. We were feeling nice, and I could tell we were going to get sexual. She was massaging me while I was on my stomach, and started rubbing my butt. The way she rubbed on my butt I knew I wanted to get filled. Before I could even say anything, she started dry humping my butt, pressing her crotch against my butt. While dry humping me, she started shoving her tongue down my throat. Holy F***
At this point I could hardly contain myself, and she got the strap on and pulled down my panties. She started to slide the c*** in and I couldn’t believe how good it felt. Other times in the past it has never happened this easy. She fucked me so good on my stomach and I was so into it. She went balls deep in me, and bent my legs back to pull her even deeper into me. HOLY F***
She then put me on my hands and knees and absolutely railed me. The build up was so good up to this point I felt like I was in heaven. We’ve used the strap in the past, but it’s never happened/felt this organic. While pounding me she found what I call my “delete” button, cause as she slapped into me and hit my spot all my thoughts just “delete”. I’ve never been fucked by anyone beside her, and now out of nowhere she is destroying my g-spot.
I have never achieved a sissygasm before on my own. Out of NOWHERE, she gives me my first one and I completely lost control. She just kept pounding my “delete” button and I just started to cum everywhere. She pounded the cum out of me hands free, I was completely mindless. SHE THEN pushed me down back to my stomach and started to spoon me and put it back in. She slowly humped me, stroked my dick, and shoved her tongue down my throat. I had ZERO thoughts beside “Plap Plap”. Before I knew it, I cum AGAIN and came for like 30 seconds. Cum shot on my face, arms, chest, body, legs, all over the bed, e v e r y w h e r e. I never knew my body could hold so much cum.
I feel like I’m ruined, lol. I’ve worn my panties everyday since, I get hard and my hole twitches every time I think of it. And I cannot stop thinking about it. Am I ruined??? Do I just need to keep getting railed mindlessly constantly?? Cause that’s all my hole is telling me rn.
Thanks for the read if you made it :33