C*ckolding: the fantasy was perfect until it started becoming real 😁
So lately I saw few posts talking about their fantasy of c*ckolding and I think I wanna share a story.
A few months ago, a guy approached me online and after a brief introduction, he confessed that his kink was c*ckolding. He and his wife lived in north and I’m in KV. He was looking for someone he could trust to become their b*ll. Let's call them Jay and Amy.
For some background, they were a young couple and Jay was completely devoted to Amy. Every time we spoke, he never stopped praising her. Her looks, personality and everything. She was in his eyes the complete package, biasa la tu kan? I also see my partner that way too ;)
As our conversations progressed, Jay opened up about how their dynamic started. What began as dirty talk between them slowly evolved into fantasies involving another man. He admitted that part of the thrill came from knowing other men found his wife attractive and he is into being degraded.
We both exchanged photos of but never revealed our faces as this is his weakness and I played along. But alongside the excitement was something much deeper: insecurity or jealousy or whatever la u want to call it. The emotional side of the fantasy was often far more intense than the sexual side.
Over time, Jay and I clicked we both liked the dynamic. He felt comfortable with me and hoped we could explore this journey together. It would have been a 1st for both of us. His preferred dynamic involved humiliation and degradation which wasn't really my thing but I was curious about the psychology behind it all. I was already happy in my own relationship so this wasn't about filling a gap in my life. It was simply something new and interesting to explore of my own hidden talent. Haha macam ada bakat.
We took things slowly. There was no rush and the dynamic started to getting better by time. Looking back, I think that was the right approach. I always believed that if this lifestyle were to work, anticipation would matter more than constant escalation. The excitement comes from the build-up. To me, it was more sustainable.
As time passed, I interacted with both of them through Jay. Amy seemed to enjoy the attention and validation, while Jay seemed increasingly invested in the dynamic itself. At one point, he told me that having a "master" in his life had affected him more deeply than he expected. It felt as if the relationship rewired him to the core.
Then 1 night, we started to sexting and things get a little intensified.
The fantasy that had existed mostly in words suddenly felt a little too real.. What had once been exciting in his imagination became something he had to emotionally face it. In the middle of everything, as the sexting turned intensified, he suddenly stopped and admitted that it was too much for him to handle especially when his imagination of another man making out with his wife comes close to being real. So we stopped.
The next morning, he messaged me and said he had enjoyed the experience but it was obvious something had changed. Maybe post nut clarity? The conversations became less frequent. The momentum faded. Eventually, we stopped talking altogether.
My take away from the whole experience is this: A lot of people fantasise about being a c*ck. Sure, fair enough but fantasy can be powerful because it allows u to explore taboo, jealousy, desire, vulnerability, insecurity and excitement all at the same time.
But fantasy and reality are separated by a very thin line. It's easy to enjoy the idea when it's safely inside ur head.
But It's a completely different experience when the fantasy starts becoming real and u have to face emotions u never expected to feel.
I don't think Jay was a bad person and I don't think he "failed" at being a c*ck. If anything, I think he discovered where his fantasy ended and where reality began.
And TBH, that's probably better to learn sooner rather than later.
Next, has anyone else experienced something similar?