u/Bulky_Bodybuilder620

I miss being sexually exploited and abused. Idk how to even out it into words. I miss having something someone else wanted. I miss being used. I miss dissociating while it happened. I miss him holding and shushing me after.. I miss the hand on the back of my neck while I stay still and quiet like a good girl. I miss BEING a good girl. Idk when I became so argumentative and fucking annoying. Maybe I have a bad attitude hoping a guy will get pissed off and rape me. Idk. I try to go out alone at night hoping some guy will want to take me. I play naive and dumb a lot. It’s not logical but all I can think about is some pervy guy kidnapping me and turning me into his freeuse, traumatized daughter. All I do is rub thinking about daddy training me to be a good girl again

Looking for an older man into cnc :p