i’ve been spending way too much time awake at night lately 😭 like i’ll literally be laying there with one lamp on scrolling through old playlists pretending i’m about to sleep and then suddenly it’s almost morning again. somehow i always end up replaying Jhené Aiko and Giveon because their music always fits that late night mood where everything feels quieter and your thoughts start drifting everywhere

i think one thing about me now is i notice tiny changes in people almost immediately. the way somebody acts once they stop trying to impress you, weird pauses in conversation, random distance, changes in tone… all of that stands out to me way more than whatever somebody is actually saying. i’m not really into fake closeness or people trying too hard to create some perfect image anymore, i’d rather see what somebody naturally turns into after time passes and things stop feeling exciting. i like people who stay grounded and consistent without turning everything into some performance

and yeah if the straaapon comes out the whole energy changes instantly lol. i like dragging everything out on purpose and making somebody stay exactly where i want them while the tension keeps building little by little. keeping my hand against their waist or lower back, pulling them closer every time they start getting restless, watching them slowly stop acting all confident once they realize i’m not rushing anything for them at all. i like when somebody starts reacting without even thinking anymore because everything feels too intense to stay composed 😭 the longer i keep them there the better it gets honestly

also i swear honeypeachchaiicecream, darkespressococonuticecream, toastedmaplevanillaicecream, and blackberrycaramelswirlicecream have been carrying my mood lately for no reason at all

i really love Death Parade and Cowboy Bebop. food is usually sushi platter, garlic butter pasta, shrimp tacos, or random late night snacks i probably didn’t need 😭

getting cheateedd honestly changed the way i look at people way more than i expected. now the smallest switch catches my attention immediately and once i notice it my whole mood changes after that. weird distance, colder replies, little changes in energy… eventually people always reveal something without even realizing it and once i see it i can’t really unsee it anymore

ngl i’ve been sitting in parking lots after driving home just listening to Sabrina Claudio instead of going inside 😭

also i can’t stop buying blackberryvanillabeanicecream lately for some reason

i really love Samurai Champloo and Death Parade. food is probably birria tacos or garlic butter pasta every time

if the straaapon comes out i’m dragging the whole thing out on purpose lol. i like when somebody starts getting impatient while i keep pulling them back into the moment

after getting cheateedd i swear i catch energy changes immediately now

ngl i’ve been sitting in parking lots after driving home just listening to Sabrina Claudio instead of going inside 😭

also i can’t stop buying blackberryvanillabeanicecream lately for some reason

i really love Samurai Champloo and Death Parade. food is probably birria tacos or garlic butter pasta every time

if the straaapon comes out i’m dragging the whole thing out on purpose lol. i like when somebody starts getting impatient while i keep pulling them back into the moment

after getting cheateedd i swear i catch energy changes immediately now