Dph has ruined my life womp womp
15 150lbs (180lbs 4 months prior)
Yeah, I don't want to sound like an attention seeker, but I've been abusing DPH for around 2-3 years now and DXM for about a year. I've taken heroic doses many times - I've taken over 3 grams of DXM polistirex with 600mg DPH on top. DPH has ruined my brain's ability to regulate emotions and is making me dumb and stupid, but the addictive side is too much to let go of, and the self-harm feeling that I get from it is too good. DXM used to give me an opioid-like high, but after abusing it so much and multiple 3-4 gram trips, DXM doesn't affect me at all anymore. I also haven't been to the doctor in 7 years and don't plan on going anytime soon. I also ruined many relationships on DPH, but I also don't want to glorify me cheating, even though I was seizing while it was happening. ive made so many mistakes and regrets i wish i could just go back and change but its set in stone and nothing i can do but ignore it and im honestly craving dph right now