[F4A] Actually just lonely (topics included)
(Really wanted to post here and remembered I never deleted my old account lol)
So to make a long story short I’ve been living with my dad and some other family for over a year now. I had to leave my community and the familiar, walkable urban setting behind, and move into the southern American sort-of countryside.
Job market has been really rough here so I’m perpetually broke, without a car, and nowhere near a bus stop. So I kinda just go days or sometimes weeks without really interacting with anybody except passing talks with family and taking care of the animals.
And I think it’s really getting to me, it’s like something inside me is screaming to have community and days full of face-to-face conversation again. My mental and emotional health has been… ehhh.
I’m working on solutions to make things better here so I’m not here about that. Right now I’m just trying to be productive but really need some conversation to break up the tedium you know?
So if you weren’t put off by how un-sexy that opening was, here’s some possible topics that can be as sex-focused or not as you want:
° Fantasizing Futures - I’m in a place where I’m thinking about this a lot. What kind of life I want to live. Personally I’ve recently accepted that I really see myself being a mother and homemaker. (Though I want more than just that in life)
° Mental Health - obviously kinda relevant. We don’t have to talk about mine, I’m more than happy to maybe hopefully help someone else instead. But if you wanna try to vivisect my psyche then feel free to try~
° Outfits/Fashion/Makeovers/“Transformation” - including this one because I’ve been thinking about expanding my style more. I spent most of my 20s with a more alt/punk/tomboy style (avoided dresses and skirts like the plague)
But now I’ve accept that there are so many other looks that I’d like to try on myself and I don’t like feeling so confined. So one thing I want to try is more “feminine” stuff, like makeup, nails, dresses, that sort of thing.
° Self Improvement - What is good for the body is often good for the mind and spirit, no? Diet (not eating enough lately and I’m afraid I’ll lose my ass 😞), exercises, skin and hair care— yeah I was depressed for all of 2025 so I have to fix myself across all fields with this. People who are good with motivation, structure, and discipline are 300% welcome for this topic, God knows I need that 😒
° Spirituality/Dreams - Um so like fair warning but I’m not conventional about this. I’d probably describe myself as a chaos witch with a somewhat christian-influenced relationship with the divine? Like I don’t really do spells, I’m more interested in communicating with higher power and working on myself as a person. But how I go about is probably definitely heresy (conversion of sexual energy is sometimes part of it) so I won’t call myself a christian either 😅
But if that intrigues you or you have your own interesting weird experience then I’d love to talk about it.
° Or Anything Else - If you have your own topic you think fits with everything else so far~
(PS - if I don’t get to your message I’m sorry that probably means I got flooded. But I’m hoping the way I wrote this prevents inbox flooding haha)
Edit: I got flooded again I’m sorry everybody but I’m only human I can’t juggle 40+ convos 😵💫