Obsessed with the idea of teansformation
I've had this obsession for a very very long time but I was only recently able to put a finger on it.
The main thing is I have an unbelivable obsession with the idea...or fantasy of transformation. It started out as I was little, while waiting to go to school as I ate breakfast and watched cartoons on various channels. That's when I first found Sailor Moon and then Wedding Peach. The transformation sequence was mesmerising.
As I grew up the fantasies really took off. I'd daydream of any kind of transformation. First standard MtM power fantasy stuff, but slowly the idea of gender teansformation crept in.
At first I kept a lid on it by playing RPGs and mostly playing female charas. As masturbation became a thing I'd usually rub one off after each session, especially if the char had skimpy armour.
Now, fast forward some years and with my own income. One night as i was scrolling YT I landed on some nostalgia videos and one of them had Sailor Moon. I dont know what happened but all those old emotions just came forward. I ended up ordering a few silly items (stockings, panties and a skirt) and did a "transformation sequence" for the lols in my appartment.
I laughed at myself..but soon noticed...I was hard. Like really, painfully hard. At first i masturbated to regular porn as usual, but after a bit the fantasy really came through.
I put on the stockings, panties, bra, blouse and skirt and do a full RP session. The idea first that I was force turned into a girl. I never came so hard before.
It snowballed from there. I got a harem costume and RPed ending up in an ancient harem and getting turned into a sultan's woman.
I eventually bought a dildo cause i was wondering how it felt. I road it to a "daddy shooting me up with transformation hormones" story. I leaked and finished myself normally.
And now Im on AI content and generating transformation storis of whatever I can imagine.
The high, or whatever you want to call it only lasts for the transformation part. There is no lingering desire to stay as a girl or anything in between. Just the rush of becoming someone else for a few minutes.