One thick cock rewired me and now Im in a flat cage
About a month ago I saw this dominant Brazilian TS escort with a thick 9.5 inch cock. I was pretty inexperienced, only bottomed like once or twice a year and never used toys.
I went in with a plan. Id researched how to take big cocks and even had a mantra ready so I could just endure it and rewrite an earlier experience. That plan lasted about five seconds.
The second I walked through the door her cock was already out. She pushed me down and started face fucking me straight away. I just went limp, opened my mouth and throat and didnt fight it. I was basically just hoping she would pull out in time so I could breathe. After that minimal prep. When she first pushed into me the stretch and pain were intense, I was squirming and making these weird noises while she held me down. She kept me face down most of the time, manhandled me, pushed my legs up, held me by the neck, spanked me. Mid session after a condom change she just spat on me instead of using more lube. I said it felt a bit dry and asked for lube and she said no she likes it this way, then pushed all the way in and within seconds I was lost in overwhelming sensation and completely forgot I even asked. Instead of just taking it I started actively participating. Pushing back onto her because I thought shed like it, almost having a sissygasm while riding her, actually liking it when she slapped me and told me not to cum. I went into full subspace for the first time in my life. I didnt even know what subspace was until I looked it up afterwards. I had no post nut clarity at all. I didnt realise shed gone ass to mouth on me until like two days later. I left her place feeling so submissive I went straight out and bought a pink nub style chastity cage that looks like a pussy. Id never done chastity before in my life.
A few days later once my hole wasnt so raw I went back already locked and handed her the keys. Same intensity if not more. She came in my mouth both times for free, she normally charges extra for that. Called me her puta.
The size difference was just ridiculous. Her cock had actual weight to it. The condom didnt even need to roll all the way to the base. Im a grower so soft I look small, hard maybe 5 or 6 inches. Next to her I felt completely irrelevant. It was like my own private version of that overview effect astronauts talk about where your whole sense of scale just shifts. A girl had a cock that completely dwarfed mine.
After that the cage stopped feeling optional. I got a strap so it stays proper secure. The other day when I took the front off my clitty was so shrivelled I could feel how small it was even without touching it.
One dominant girl with a massive cock fucked the manhood out of me. I went in planning to just endure it and ended up participating in my own erasure. Still figuring out what that means but something definitely got rewritten. I feel I no longer have the right to call myself a man. It's like I have no choice but to walk the sissy path
Now I just bought a flat cage yesterday and am wearing it as I write this.
I'm not sure what the next steps are. It's kind of frightening how fast this is all happening.