Lost in a world of GABAergics & IV meth 😪
Has anyone actually managed to kick this shit, and kick it for good?
I’m absolutely stuck in a world of nothingness. Started smoking meth about 4 years ago, but the past 2 iv been slamming every single day apart from the start of the year when I drank 30ml of gbl by accident and was induced into a coma, I managed 6 weeks off the shit 2 weeks in detox the other 2 in hospital because they saw my small intestine folding into my big intestine as my GI system was really struggling without the 247 dosing of GBL wich has been 4 years.
Even after stopping breathing, waking up from a coma, having a 12 inch scar on my stomach from being sliced open loosing a lot, giving the rest away, no friend left as I pushed them all out, I still choose the drugs.
I’m in such a mess as I’m prescribed Valium & baclofen from being in detox to kick the GBL but now I have to sporadically take them along side the GBL and hope I wake up if I nod off, then i am absolutely addicted to needles and shooting up meth. 90% sure I have an issue with pregabalin as I take tiny bits of that daily.
I have a good family that really cares and I don’t want to be a statistic to this but my brain just will not stop, I’m masking a tonne of trauma and depression but I don’t think that’s the sole driving force.
Mixing so many cns depressants then slamming meth I’m just tap dancing up and down my brains axis chord and I know this will not last much longer!
If you have ever been in such a mess or even just got off IV meth I’d like to hear from you 🙏🏽