u/Corsets-and-tea

I have always felt naturally drawn to older, dominant, protective men. It was all too easy for them to get me to feel emotionally attached and reliant on them. Growing up I've had to deal with abandonment issues, neglect, no one in my family caring about me, my dad viewing me as a failure and a burden, etc.

I miss having someone to reach out to when I'm struggling who can comfort me in a way that grows to be him taking advantage of my vulnerability. I want to be treated like I'm too innocent and little to know how to make decisions: what I should eat, when I should go to sleep, what adult words I'm allowed to say. Without a proper daddy, I've been feeling so lonely. I get clingy and needy, and imagine having an older man to cuddle with at night, who can murmur protective words in my ear while his hands wander all over me. I get anxious so easily without an older man who can guide me.

The daddy daughter roleplay stuff is my absolute favorite. I want someone who views me in that way, and who can give me the affection and attention I've missed out on. The dream of having someone to call daddy, who would brush my hair for me, hold me tight, give me kisses, teach me how to please him, just seems to be slipping further from my reach. I feel so empty without it, the connection impacts me emotionally just as much as it does physically.

My kinks include: DDLG, ageplay, being corruption (I am a virgin), somnophilia, and receiving praise
My limits include degradation and doing anything that would cause me pain.

I am a virgin, I have never been touched more than just kissing and my trauma of being assaulted, and I hate that. College is done for the summer, and I am always fantasizing about enjoying my free time by going out and hooking up with someone. College guys are nothing but immature boys who have yet to learn proper hygiene, I don't want someone my age who goes to frat parties. I want a man. Someone older who can use me to get out all his pent up frustrations till I pass out. Someone who can teach me how to suck a guy's cock. Someone who can eat me out so I can finally know what it feels like when someone's tongue is inside me.

I feel like I've been deprived of so many experiences, and I hate it. I hate having to follow my morals and not just pounce on the first older guy I see. I need to act out my fantasies, and every day that goes by without me being touched makes that need get stronger.

My limits consist of anal and bathroom stuff.