19F Needy and unable to solve it
I am a virgin, I have never been touched more than just kissing and my trauma of being assaulted, and I hate that. College is done for the summer, and I am always fantasizing about enjoying my free time by going out and hooking up with someone. College guys are nothing but immature boys who have yet to learn proper hygiene, I don't want someone my age who goes to frat parties. I want a man. Someone older who can use me to get out all his pent up frustrations till I pass out. Someone who can teach me how to suck a guy's cock. Someone who can eat me out so I can finally know what it feels like when someone's tongue is inside me.
I feel like I've been deprived of so many experiences, and I hate it. I hate having to follow my morals and not just pounce on the first older guy I see. I need to act out my fantasies, and every day that goes by without me being touched makes that need get stronger.
My limits consist of anal and bathroom stuff.