I’m on 1800mg of lithium, the 400mg Abilify Maintena injection, and 70mg of Vyvanse if that matters.
I took an edible and now I’m having auditory hallucinations, hearing people screaming and animals in the walls. I also feel detached from reality, paranoid that my SO is working for the government, and like I’m not fully in control of my actions.
Can weed be psychedelic? I’m honestly scared. What should I do right now?
So let’s set the scene: it’s April 2015, and I haven’t slept more than a couple hours in over 4 months, but somehow I feel more energized and confident than ever. My thoughts are moving a mile a minute, I’m talking nonstop, and I’m convinced I’ve finally figured life out. I go downtown alone at 3am wearing thousands of dollars worth of designer clothes I bought impulsively earlier that day after draining nearly $16,000 buying strangers drinks, gambling recklessly, paying random people’s tabs, handing out cash, and tipping absurd amounts because I felt unstoppable and weirdly important.
I’m bouncing between clubs, bars, casinos, and hotel lobbies acting like I own the city. I start getting into random cars with people I met 20 minutes earlier, giving out my number to everyone, flirting aggressively, and making huge promises I can’t realistically keep. At one point I try booking a last minute international flight on a whim because I suddenly decide I need to “start a new life” immediately. I’m posting bizarre motivational rants online, calling people at 4am to explain business ideas that make no sense, and trying to convince strangers to invest in projects I came up with hours earlier.
Eventually I end up with a group of people I barely know in a rundown apartment somewhere downtown. Despite having almost no drug experience, I decide smoking crack cocaine sounds like a great idea, So I hit the pipe, and within seconds my ears start ringing violently and my entire body feels like it’s vibrating. The high hits me all at once and it’s way more intense than I expected, to the point I instantly panic because I’m absolutely gone. In a desperate attempt to calm myself down, I grab whatever’s left in a bottle of champagne and chug it without thinking before stumbling out into the street.
The initial rush fades almost as fast as it came, and the euphoria turns into pure paranoia. Suddenly I’m alone in downtown LA at night, disoriented, terrified, and convinced something horrible is about to happen to me. Every person walking by feels threatening, every sound feels amplified, and my thoughts are racing so fast I can barely process reality.
Then the hallucinations start almost immediately. I’m seeing people who aren’t actually there standing in alleyways and following me down the sidewalk, and I start hearing voices yelling my name and talking about me even though nobody is around. At that point I completely lose touch with what’s real. I’m screaming in the middle of the street, trying to get away from things that don’t exist, convinced people are after me. Eventually someone calls the police because I’m clearly out of control and having some kind of breakdown, and I end up getting arrested in the middle of downtown while still hallucinating and terrified out of my mind.