u/Curiouslookingmind

So first I've been an off and on sissy. Well last year we talked my wife about it and I gave it up for her. Well as of the last couple of months I've been slowly getting back into sissy porn and all that.

Now the question is how do I tell my wife that I miss wearing panties and a chastity cage? I mean I miss the rest of it too, but these are the two I mainly miss wearing on a daily basis.

Of course I am also afraid I might fall back into the rabbit hole and want to buy dildos and all that. Cause just dressing in sexy lingerie and wearing a cage gets me "worked up" sort of speak and I just need a release.

I've been doing my best to keep my mind preoccupied but I really think its time to talk to my wife about it before I do anything that will harm our relationship. So any thoughts (respectfully) would be appreciated.

Readers notes: I am drunk when posting this. Sorry for any typos or offensive comments made. I will do my best to relay my thoughts to the best of my ability.

I hate that I have to swap between male and female roles. Now what I mean by that is from online quizzes and test I am a switch. So I am either a dom or sub, but in my case my Dom side is male and my sub side is female.

So when I feel dominant I dress and act masculine. Confident, head strong ready to talk on the world. Yet there are times where I don't want to lead but follow. So I become submissive and want to wear womens clothes and be told what to do.

Now I hate. HATE my reflection in the mirror in any shape or form. So it doesn't matter what I feel cause I don't know me. Therapy didn't help, my wife trys to help me (oh yeah I am married). I take the form as people see me or what they think of me. I alway change like a chameleon adapting to its surroundings. Been like this since I was a kid.

Now I like wearing women's lingerie it comfy. I don't like men's thongs, it weird same fabric just not comfortable. I don't believe in gender fluid or the whole spectrum thing. Cause I can't find a place in it. In all honesty this is a me problem. Yet I look for outside options to help give some light on my situation. I am opened mind and willing to listen, course I am hard headed so...but still I asked.

Thank you for reading.

How do I tell my wife that I want to get back into the sissy lifestyle? I have a older post about that I think I am relapsing, but for some reason I keep coming back to sissy porn.

I don't find men attractive, yet the thought of a hard cock arousal me. I miss my chastity cage, and wearing panties and generally just being submissive.

Now I played the conversation in my head. I don't miss the routine of being a sissy. The shaving and constant care of being "feminine" in the sense. Cause she HATED my sissy side but played along till it got the point where it crossed her safety zone. I quit being a sissy for her.

Now we are expecting our first child. Super happy (side note) but I don't know how to tell her I miss being a sissy. Another side note I have been drinking when making this post so sorry for the sporadic train of thought.

Thank you for reading

How come every time you post on any sissy sub reddit you get messaged by all of these so called mistress' or goddesses? Does anyone else find it annoying?