u/DLlezz

I can’t stop thinking about what giving a handjob to a guy feels like. I want to rub his cock over his pants, feeling just how big he is from his bulge alone. I want to slowly unzip his pants before his cock springs out from under his boxers. I’d feel so flustered from seeing how hard it is, so intrigued by the way it slightly twitches. I’d be so nervous to touch it with my hand but my “guilt” would quickly be overcome by my natural instinct to pleasure him. I’d stroke his cock shyly at first, unsure if i’m doing okay but i’d quickly be reassured by his groans and praises telling me i stroke cock so well for a dyke….fuck it makes me whimper at the thought..Seeing the precum spill from his tip, coating my hand with it while I jerk him off. I’d imagine it’d feel so warm and soft in my hand, i’m so needy and wet for it…He’d orgasm with a few stuttered groans while he calls me his good girl, his cum shooting all over my hand and wrist. he’d order me to gather all his cum in my hand and swallow it all. I’d more than happily comply, eager to have more reason to touch his cock and finally taste what a man tastes like. I’d swallow every last bit, opening wide to show him how obedient i am. He’d send me home to kiss my girlfriend with my mouth smelling and tasting like his semen.

I hate how even with a girlfriend that validates and gives me all kinds of attention and affection i still crave male attention. I love when the men on here tell me how they’d use or take advantage of me, it makes me feel so giddy and horny it’s so embarrassing. It makes me feel so humiliated because as a woman i know people would look down on me for craving male attention and letting them talk about me like an object and as a lesbian….my whole community would see me as nothing more than a “bi girl” using lesbianism for mens fetishes, i’d be so outcasted and looked down on but thats what makes it feel so good

I’ve been off the subreddit for a bit feeling a bit guilty for doing this behind my gfs back, so i confessed to her about it. She took it well in the sense of she didn’t leave me but she absolutely hates the concept of this kink, she just doesn’t think it’s healthy. She’s been much more jealous and protective when i’m around guys which honestly just turns me on that she’s imagining guys fuck me. I told her i’d stay off the subreddit and i tried i really did but i just can’t help myself. I love men and i love cock so much