23F I hump my boyfriend while he sleeps
This only started recently, but I already feel like this is a part of me that I can’t let go off.
I’ve always been very into humping. It’s not something I have ever mentioned or talked about. Though I haven’t actively shared or discussed my love for it with anyone, I still believe my partner knows about my “interests” at least to some degree, as I have had sexual conversations with him in our earlier years where I shared the fact that I was humping while sexting him.
I also do tend to rub myself on him a lot as foreplay, to get him interested in me and going.
Moving on or back to when this all started. Basically one night I was extremely horny, so horny that I couldn’t fall asleep to save a life. If I tried closing my eyes, I would just start imagining scenarios in my head. I let this be known to my boyfriend who was laying besides me and he kinda just brushed me off.
Of course it makes sense, since he usually works early shifts and needs his rest.
I was still incredibly horny though, and frustrated that he wouldn’t entertain me even for a little bit. So I basically laid there in total agony for what felt like hours before I finally couldn’t take it anymore and started touching myself.
It wasn’t long before I moved onto my stomach and started grinding against our bed and imagining getting a good fucking from my man.
This persisted until I heard him making sounds in his sleep, which pulled me out off my horny daze for a hot minute, as I was reminded I wasn’t alone.
I thought about waking him up and asking for sex again, but refrained as he really does need his sleep, still I really wanted some action so went back to quietly humping myself stupid.
At some point I got horny enough to stop thinking and I started including him in the fun. I didn’t start out humping him, since I didn’t wanna wake him up. So I settled for touching myself while sniffing his back and huffing his scent.
This wasn’t enough however, and not as physically pleasing as I prefer humping, so I dropped touching myself at some point and started lightly humping him from behind while smelling him.
I gotta say, I basically couldn’t feel him 99% of the time since I was only tapping him with my crotch and moving my hips back and forth on our bed. Still the tapping, sniffing and stimulation from my thighs was enough to get me over the edge after a bit, and I had a less powerful but still wonderful orgasm.
It also felt exhilarating in a weird and forbidden way and my heart was pounding.
I do feel ashamed to a certain degree honestly, since if the roles where reversed it definitely wouldn’t be ok. Still I can’t stop including him in this way.
I’ve been continuing this act since then, not every night but frequently. I’ll wait till he falls asleep and then some more, before humping myself silly onto him. I don’t move him around as to not wake him up, but I do already have some favorite positions for him to be in when I hump him.
Last night he was facing me while I did it, and fuckk. Feeling his hot breath on my head while I “used” him to get off was ecstatic.
Recently I thought off rubbing his crotch while he sleeps, to see if I can get him hard, but I haven’t acted on those thoughts for obvious reasons.