Has anyone ever been...
....Addicted to a very specific cock in their life? I realize this will probably sound like some weird fanfiction A.I. story but here we go anyway:
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I (44m) hooked up a few years ago with a dude (who's a furry, never met in costume, tho) who I later found out was both homeless AND who I later discovered had VERY definite mental issues. (He would often start talking about pretty nonsensical things in the middle of sex, and I often wonder if he was schizophrenic, even if a gentle one.) I had a hard time believing he was homeless because he was quite good-looking and very clean in appearance.
He *needed* to be high all the time (marijuana) due to supposed body pain, and I highly suspect he had hyperspermia because he always complained about it "hurting" really bad if he didn't get off several times a day. (He would always cum bucketfuls even after we fucked a fourth or fifth time in a row in the same session. My ass/belly enjoyed this VERY much.)
After realizing his mental issues really were quite bad, I lost interest over time, mostly in "him" and would often get together with him when he asked to see me specifically just for that amazing shlong of his to pump my belly full with multiple loads as much as he wanted all night.
Even after quietly breaking off our regular visits, I would still occasionally message him on nights when the memory and pull of his dick were too strong to ignore and by the egg, those were some of the best nights of my life. I would still be leaking cum two full days after.
I finally had to tell myself to stop seeing him and permanently, but gently, let him completely go. That was a hard day, because he cried and begged because of how many people left him behind. It was really hard for me to do because even with the mental issues, he was a sweet guy and if he hadn't had mental problems, hadn't been a smoker, oh, man, I would absolutely have dated him on the spot.
It's been about 4 months since I last saw him and the other night I found some porn with a dude with his exact body type, straight down to his long skinny cock and his exact style of fucking, and great giggity goo, my fingers have been itching SO badly to message him again ---- not because of "him" per say, but just so I can get at that marvelous dick of his again.
It's bad enough that I fantasize about it fairly frequently and remember all the times he would pump my belly completely full.
But my gosh. It's insane to me that I've never actually had an addiction to a specific dick in my life until now.
Has anyone else ever dealt with this?