u/Distinctlywiseone

You both got out the car at a dogging location and while I was standing outside of my car. You both looked over at me as you started walking the path. I started following and i must have taken longer than i thought because 1/4 away round i couldn’t see you anymore, so i continued on my way around hoping to catch up with you. 3/4 of the way round i cut back over the bridge and found you both. Id made it very obvious that I was there and slowly started approaching until I was close enough to acknowledge you both but still further away than needed to see anything. You both then walked past me with only a hi but kept looking back to make sure i was following. I wasn’t sure if i should follow but you walked the way back to the cars i had no choice and again you disappeared. I figured you had gone into the bushes but I guess I was just too nervous and waited for a bit before i decide to walk in as well due to the noise i thought were you. As i started in i heard a beep of a horn and said nah couldn’t be them. Kept walking through the bushes then gave up and went back to the car only to find that they had actually left and it was them that beeped. Well now good play or bad play? Ive tried 3 times to end my life because people are assholes and have made me feel like I am absolutely worthless, useless and a complete waste of oxygen since i can remember and then you do this, not even enough respect to say sorry buddy we aren’t here for that or some other bullshit excuse then at least i would have been more than happy to walking away without feeling again rejected. I don’t understand how someone would be so malicious. I personally don’t know how many more times I can move on from these daily struggles but if I can’t and i do you have now played your part in it and from the bottom of my heart i give you a warm and heartfelt thank you 😞 and hope you feel warm and fuzzy every night you close your eyes to sleep and it becomes your undoing which divides you both before the guilt consumes you !!!