Secret cuckold fantasies
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I'm a 34-year-old married man with a deep secret cuckold fantasy about my wife. She knows nothing about it, and I feel the guilt but the arousal is too strong to stop.
I often raid her laundry for used panties, bras, leggings, and stockings. I wear them while I'm alone. The feel of her things on my skin makes me throb with humiliation. I also show strangers and fellow cucks real pics of my wife face carefully hidden or cropped. I chat dirty about her with them: describing her tight pussy, how she'd moan, how I want them to fuck her hard. They reply with filthy details "I'd stretch your wife's cunt and fill it with cum" or "She'd look so slutty taking two cocks at once." Chatting with other cucks who share the same kink makes it even hotter. I edge for hours, stroking slowly, denying myself, sometimes for a long time until I'm leaking nonstop in her panties.
When the edging gets too much, I have real sex with my wife. I fuck her hard, dump all my hot cum deep inside her pussy, and then,I go down and lick it all out. While licking my own load from her, I imagine it's some other guy's thick creampie maybe one of the guys from the chats who just fucked her. The taste and the fantasy make me so hard again.
My mind goes to scenarios where multiple different men use her. They take turns pounding her, cumming in her mouth, pussy, and ass while I watch in her stockings. Or a small gangbang where she's moaning like a whore, covered in cum. The psychology hits hard the jealousy turns into pure lust, the humiliation of being the cleanup cuck in her lingerie while thinking about real men breeding her.
I try to control it but triggers are everywhere. Anyone else do the dirty chats with fellow cucks and strangers, long edging sessions, and then reclaim sex while fantasizing it's someone else's cum?