u/DryDistribution8285

I am an older gay masculine presenting male. I am a secret cross dresser with dreams and fantasies of becoming a full fledged sissy being owned abused and used by an Alpha male. Is it odd because I am gay that I want this? I feel very torn and isolated in my thoughts about this aspect of myself. I don’t fit in as a gay man and I don’t fit in as a sissy in the literal definition. A part of me feels like if I didn’t exist every painful thought and emotion that I go through would cease.