i'm a 20 years old butch, want to be ftm. most of the time people wouldn't know that i'm female or if they do know then they would still treat me as one of the guys.
but no one would know that i had some kink like degradation, cnc, misgendering and stuffs, all kind of things that make me feel like a slave without any human rights.
i've been having these fantasies for a while and i hated it so much. feel so dirty and terrible. so i tried to convinced myself and focus on my study and work and be able to living my life until a few days ago. i met a friend of my friend and once he knew that i am a woman, he was confused and curious so he kicked my crotch to see my reaction. ever since i could not stop thinking about that and want someone to dominate me and brainwash me into submission.