I (24F) regret what happened on my birthday trip to Manali
I really need to get this off my chest.
It was my birthday and my boyfriend took me, my best friend Priya (23F), and her boyfriend to Manali. We stayed in a nice Airbnb with a big open living area. Everything was fun at first sightseeing, good food, and a lot of drinking.
On my birthday night we all got really drunk and started playing truth or dare. It began innocently but turned sexual quickly. My boyfriend dared me to lick cake icing off Priya’s nipples while the guys watched. I was buzzed and went along with it. I licked and sucked on her breasts right there on the couch as they cheered. It felt crazy and exciting in the moment, but I should have stopped it there.
Things escalated way too far. Clothes came off, and before I knew it, all four of us were naked and having sex together in the same room. It turned into a full foursome me and Priya with each other, then switching with the guys. We were all over the bed and couch, drunk and loud. I regret it so much now. It was impulsive and stupid.
The next morning we acted normal, but the vibe was already off. Weeks later, everything feels ruined. I keep replaying it and feeling guilty, especially about Priya.
A few days ago she told me she and her boyfriend broke up. He kept pressuring her to message me and set up another night because he “found me so hot” and couldn’t stop thinking about what we did. He was forcing the idea on her, bringing it up constantly, and making her feel uncomfortable. She said no, but he wouldn’t drop it. Now their relationship is over, and I feel like a huge part of it is my fault for letting things go that far that night.
I can’t stop thinking about how one drunk mistake destroyed their relationship and made everything awkward with all of us. My own boyfriend still jokes about it sometimes, but I just feel shame and regret. Group trips and hangouts are probably done forever.
Has anyone else been in a situation like this where a wild night destroyed friendships/relationships afterward? I wish I could take it back. Happy birthday to me… what a mess I made.