u/Financial-Move2480

Okay, here it is. Another confession.
This one is easy to make. I don't wash the bed sheets after every hookup. Even if there's a little cum splatter or sweaty wet stains. I love the smell of sex. And I like to savor that smell even after the guy runs away. Yeah, and most guys cumming to hookup run away. Blow n go guys included. Once they unload, they move on quick. Not many cuddles these days. It makes me realize now, especially since I'm older (58) the foreplay, kissing, cuddling, groping, sweet dirty chatting. All of it becomes more valuable than just, bang N leave! Or chew N screw! Just saying, I must be slowing down a bit. But, I still managed 4 hookup guys yesterday. Exhausted. But satisfied. Oh🤔 back to the story ( sheets)

Yeah they get dirty. I don't mind much. Unless there toast I wash about every 2-4 hookups. Does that make me a bad ( naughty) gurl🤔😋 I do more often after threesomes. Just got too. Lots of tasty sweaty men! Yay🥰

For context, I think I started to crossdress secretly before I got really brave enough to start hooking up with guys. It started about 3.5 yrs ago. My mom has alzheimers bad and kept escaping my dads home. Mostly to get away from him. Frankly, he's never been really nice. Is very anxious from trauma he had from childhood all the way to he married her. She is an angel. Super sweet person, but unfortunately she was never strong enough to stand up to his abusive ways. He was abusive to entire family in different degrees. My sister was the least abused, but still submissive.
I left home as teenager. Made my own path. Including military service. He gladly signed the papers when 8 was 17. He was glad to rid of me. I did get in a bit of trouble as teenager. A wild child I was. The last of 4 kids. My 3 siblings all one year apart. Then a 4 yr gap. Then bang! Me comes along. Probably I'm a mistake. I'm the cum that didn't drip onto the bedsheets. Or, as my brother called me ( the postman's child) Oh well.
I did well enough in school that I qualify for state college. But even working since age 14, I didn't have the dough. So, US army here I cum. I bleed, they pay. I took hight risk MOS ( 13 Foxtrot) forward observer or the nickname Fister! Yup that's the nickname they go by. Not a job for the faint of heart or those that don't want to risk death. It did pay a bonus. Much bigger bonus in wartime, tho. Before the army, when I would be brave and take risky assignments, all i did with my young Male buddies was jerking, frotting, groping and a little sucking. I suppressed all my stronger sexual urges with guys and went wild with any ladies i could hookup with. That was a mistake, i realized just recently. I should have acted on my wonderful homosexuality then. I'd be in a different place now. Well, can't change the past. Best to soldier on. Long story short. My apologies. Within days of signing my mom over the nursing home where should could be safe and get proper care. I was buying dildos and butt plugs. Which is alot safer than just putting random items like a plunger handle up my bum. I love anything up my asshole. But butt toys are safer. Then I started buying some panties. My first new panties. Instantly addicted!! Then came more toys. Real lube. Not just plain vaseline. Yuck! Then I started taking pics of my slutty ass and self. Posted them. People seemed to like them . Mostly guys🤔 Which made me start thinking? I should try gay hookup apps. I did. Got lots of hits. Was super nervous. But got thru the fear. And start to hookup with random guys. Gosh! This is the point where I realized how much cock intrigued me. Been using hookup apps for almost 4 yrs now. I love it. I need to be used like a sissy whore. Sissy whore fits me perfectly. I still hooked up with a couple sis girls, but I didn't chase them. It was just a drunken opportunity for both parties. Convenient only. I've had Sooo much cock over this time period. Its like a big horny blur. Very rare I refuse any cock now. I'm totally a whore. No going back.
I do wish I had one special boyfriend. But I know that is probably not in the cards for me. Fidelity just seems impossible. I think about cock 24/7. Which leads to gooning at cock pics. Which leads to hitting up guys to hookup. Leads to me sucking cock. Which soon has me begging to be fucke by cock. A vicious cycle that won't quit! Back to dressing I still love my huge panties collection. But have steadily expanded to all other womens clothing. I love to occasionally go out clubbing crossdressing. That's huge turn on. Even without any sex. Cause I like music and dancing. I don't go out often. But when I do it's for the whole night. Till daybreak usually. Not cheap these days. Especially the bar tab. I've found crossdressing increases my hookup rate with guys. And since I absolutely love ladies clothes its Purfect combo. Well that covers it mostly. Check out my pics. Maybe you will like them. Ty to anyone reading this. ✌😘💋💜