Why am I not into white men except for the fascists?
A lot of girls here seem to just have a race rink. As a desi girl I totally get that and see why white men in general are better than other men. But tbh the difference isn’t that big imo.
But white fascists in the other hand? The descendants of the same men who conquered and colonized my people for generations and generations? I have completely different feelings for them. It could be something genetic, like my body knows men like this are dangerous and strong and if I have no choice but to submit to them.
In fact even though I’m terrified of them, at the same time I want them to return to my country, retake everything, recolonize us, recolonize me. It’s such a strange cocktail of emotions that I don’t even know how much of it is sexual and how much of it is just historical trauma.