u/Genetic_Narcissist

Hi, I don't know how many other people have experienced this, but I have just had all the joy and light aspects of alcohol completely disappear from the experience these past 6-8 months. I liked alcohol decently for awhile and would especially go hard around other people, but I've been mostly looking for things which allow me to be functional while feeling euphoria and warmth, just because I have chronic pain.

I've struggled a little near the beginning of the year with quitting somewhat of a reliance on alcohol to cope with my situation, but after disconnecting from it and having opioid drugs from my prescriber, I just suddenly don't have any attraction or good mood from drinking anymore! I only even tried to get a buzz a few of these times because I just feel like I don't have enough of my medication yet, but it just doesn't feel good anymore! I feel genuinely like I just drink it and it doesn't sit well in my body, and when the effects come on, it's more of a drowsy uncomfortable disassociation, than any kind of buzz which I used to get using it.

It seems like genuinely all the negative aspects are the only part that I can participate in now, like I haven't even been drinking a lot when I do it, just a glass of wine at dinner or something and it decreases my inhibitions a small amount with a massive feeling of discomfort and sluggishness. I don't even feel like I'm happy or joyous It's just genuinely like a disruptive and frustrating sensation, and when I'm done drinking like after 1 1/2 hours I just get unwell and feel like I got sick. Not even drinking much, I've never felt this distinctly unhappy drinking alcohol, and I'm honestly pretty happy about it because it's not good for you and all that. But I'm just big time confused It feels like it's almost got to be some kind of subconscious bodily response to understanding it isn't good, and it isn't necessary.

It's like my subconscious mind just destroyed the only positive aspects in my pharmacological responses, or something like that? It's as strong as if somebody suddenly deleted an enzyme in my body or something and I'm not getting anything positive anymore. I wonder if anybody else has had this experience, I haven't drank for all that long in my life and I've only had a few seasons where I actually actually took part in drinking to the detriment of my life and it never was very bad. I'm very glad to have medication that just sues me and gives me the sensation that I always looked for from THC and/or alcohol, but I just didn't think alcohol would suddenly become sickening to me!

What do you think, what have you had like this?

I love when I get that nice cozy feeling like from when I was sick as a kid, where I take a pill or conception and it just feels like the ache and pain haze fades away! I'm dealing with chronic pain and I've been dealing with shitty weed/ kratom, alcohol to self medicated for so long, but I'm finally NOW just having the success with my doctors to get oxycodone at enough dosage to pretty much help it go half away or more.

I literally just drudge through the pain in life and I'm trying to live for hope, and my future. Getting my hands on the oxycontin after weeks of pain and dealing with only oxycodone for a couple hour halflife of relief, I'm starting relax and feel nice after a long day of medical appointments. I just looked around and I'm able to potentiate the sedation and nice little cozy feeling with my grapefruit furanocoumarin potion, just decided to get a stray hydroxyzine and some cyclobenzaprine with a couple ibuprofen.

It's just a little dirty random medicine jamboree but dang am I happy to have this cozy feeling after fighting like a true lawyer for my right to medicate with real drugs. Now I take some pieces of old stuff that didn't fit the bill, and become my own little pharmacist! Grapefruit juice tek is the best, because I worked for it and used tons of science to make it constantly efficient. I just had to stop buying those expensive white grapefruit juice bottles, and now I get a bunch of red grapefruit from a bag and I figured out that you can slice up the peel and rind, boil it and create a decoction then you can use that like a potion to potentiate! I'm cool to be home now and getting the relief and nice rest I deserve, finally!

But don't do drugs, kids. It's bad, just use them as tools!