u/GnosticShadow

You’re curious. You watch gay porn, have a day fantasy. But once you cum, the feeling goes away. Sure it comes back again later, but in the interim you try and convince yourself that it’s just a phase, uneasy - and maybe a little scared - about what it might mean.

Rest assured: these gay feelings and desires are natural. Real. They’re right. The truth is, what causes this doubt is fear. Fear about the new and unknown, yes, but more than that…what you fear is your own body. Something that you think you know well, but is now reacting in ways you never before experienced.

The moments you are lost in the fantasies are the moments your true self is trying to emerge into the world, and the moments of guilt and doubt afterwards is the lie unknowingly built to contain it and keep it in. In those moments of arousal, all you can imagine is pleasuring and exploring another man’s body. But as is said, you cannot know another man if you do not truly know yourself. And luckily there is something that your body does on its own right now that can help you take the first step in that exploration.

Precum.

You may think to yourself that you’ve had desires to taste cum before but it is gone immediately after orgasm. But we’re not talking cum. We’re talking precum, which beads out from your cock head when you’re still aroused and helps to lubricate. It’s also the very element that will help you accept your true desires.

The next time you are aroused and fantasizing or watching gay porn, look for that bead of precum. And when it appears, gently take your finger, lift the precum up, and gently place it upon your tongue. Move it around slowly to find the right taste buds as needed. It may be salty, sweet…both. Your body will react - subtly or overtly, but it will react. And you will you’ve just had your first taste of how pleasurable an effect your body can produce…and if it can do that on its own, what can it do for another man? And what can his body do for you?

Congratulations. You have just taken your first step away from heterosexuality and fear along a path towards pure gay bliss.