u/Hopeful_Bit_2668

Daddy is planning to have my ass filled with 2 cocks tomorrow night
He told me to prepare tonight
But he didn’t tell this dumb slut what to do

I 34f have bpd, I was diagnosed at 23, been managing it well enough. I had a boyfriend when I was diagnosed with it, he wasn’t a good guy and used the fear I had of him leaving to push me beyond my boundaries. The sexual acts he made me perform were depraved, humiliating and degrading. When I would split and rage out at an unanswered text he would ensure the humiliation was a punishment I wouldn’t soon forget.
He used me in front of others, with others. He would have me self degrade and punish myself daily.
This went on for years until it became too toxic for both of us.
After we broke up, I immediately went to the apps. I was driving all over the county to feel the feeling my now ex gave me.
Most men weren’t comfortable degrading me the first night, but I would keep trying and eventually when they grew tired of me trying they got mad and made sure I understood.
Now I seem to annoy men until they hate fuck me because it’s the closest thing to my ex
I hate how much being rejected hurts it’s made me say yes to things I never thought I would

I had my first traumatic sexual experience at a young age, I thought after the first one I would stay away from men and experience like the first. Instead the second looked like the first so did the third and fourth.

Now I chase the abuse that once made me afraid
It makes me wet needy desperate for more

Men have no problem providing

I’ll never break free from the shame of loving depravity

In my local R4R there was a post of a man looking to finger fuck a woman anonymously in her car in a parking lot. My inner slut was curious and I responded
We chatted about limits made a plan to meet at a Walmart parking lot a few hours later.
My heart was pounding in the parking lot when j pulled in to the most empty area.
I wore a summer dress no panties
I got in my back seat messaged the man and waited.
I nervously played with myself , I was so wet from anticipation.

My car door opened and a man in his early twenties got in and said spread your legs whore.
I obeyed him. He pulled the front of my dress down and sucked my nipples his hand rubbing my pussy lips
He pushed me back and went to work on my soaking wet hole. He had 4 fingers in me so quickly I started cumming in squirts.
I gushed all over him and he kept pumping until he had a full fist in me
I rode his fist until I couldn’t move
He pulled out of my pussy wiped my cum all over my face and he left the car.

It was a hot anonymous experience I’d love to do again

I have a rosebud vibrator on level 3 in my panties
How long would you keep it running before you let me cum, will you make me crawl around? Go for a walk? Hump objects? I want to be played with toyed and tortured

I was taken advantage of by older men from the time I was 18 years old. I grew up with an alcoholic father, and a mother that left me with him. He was barely around and when men that reminded me of him started pursuing me it felt good. I didn’t think age mattered, I just wanted to feel loved. I agreed to do things I didn’t want to do, out of fear they would leave me. My therapist says what happened to me was abuse. I believe it is abuse, at the same time it happened for so long and felt so normal, all I crave are men who treat me the same way.
I married a man that openly cheated on me and tells me they are better than me, he belittled me degraded me, and I wanted more.
I didn’t choose these kinks, and they are real. I hate when men think what happened to me was fake or I’m role playing.
There are men that will go beyond the screen, and you’d never guess behind closed doors they are sadistic to the core, it’s not always fiction.

What does a beta do when the powers out and he left me for the night to be with a hotter woman. No lights just a fucktoy and her phone

A few years ago a man I was dating invited me to an air bnb for a fun night of wine and sex.
He bought toys and restraints, I was a little nervous when he showed me everything he bought.
Huge black dildo, O ring gag, a dildo gag, ropes, chains, vibrators, it was a lot.
He gave me lingerie to put on, a full body stocking, and he said he’d get the wine while I got dressed.

Nervously I changed into the body stocking, it was fish net, my nipples poked through. He came in with the wine, and I took a long sip, then another to get more comfortable. I really liked this guy and didn’t want to let him down. I finished the glass quickly and he sat me in a chair, got the rope, he began tying my calf to my thigh then the other. I was spread eagle, I started to feel dizzy. I tried to speak and my words came out wrong. He tied my hands behind my back and I was completely helpless. He started setting up a camera in front of me, he told me I was going to have an audience that night, I didn’t really understand what was happening, then he shoved the dildo gag in my mouth . He grabbed the black dildo and the lube, he tore the crotch of the body stocking wide open. I don’t remember much after that, except when I would sober up a bit he would tell me how many men are watching me. I was thirsty I don’t know where the gag went, he brought more wine and the room would get fuzzy all over again

I woke up naked bruised covered in cum piss and marker all over my body.
The most degrading words in sharpie
A collar around my neck and an anal hook in me attached to the collar.

I felt so dirty and ashamed that he used me in that way, but it makes me wet to think about it now

I’m in an open relationship, my partner encourages me to meet men in tinder for casual encounters.

Tonight I met up with a match at his place. He bragged about being kinky and dominant, my preferred type of partner. Degradation is something I crave but most aren’t comfortable providing, this match seemed eager to prove he was more than comfortable with it
I challenged this man to degrade me

He made me strip In the doorway before closing his door. He was waiting with a collar and leash in hand. He clipped the collar around my neck, pulled out a sharpie scrawled bitch across my stomach then lead me to a bedroom
There was a dog bed he instructed me to kneel in
On all 4’s in a dog bed he came behind me with a magic wand and lube
He played with my pussy like an expert
I was crying and whimpering from orgasm after orgasm
He verbally degraded me for being so horny for a stranger to treat me like a desperate animal
It made me wetter
He shoved my mess in my face
I begged for more
He stretched my cunt
Choked me with cock
Left me a shaking puddle on the floor

My partner was so turned on when he saw the mess made on me he was inspired to try degrading me for the first time

Thank you stranger on tinder
I’m a forever grateful needy bitch