u/IssueFeisty7817

I'm 20M, she's 18F, cousins living in the same house in conservative Pakistani family. We've had some charged moments (she's seen me in compromising situations, when I was naked in bath and coming out of there and I didn't knew then my penis is actually erected then and so it was visible and when I was about to close the door) I saw then I was hard and so she was smiling being childish like and then suddenly shy kind of or avoiding me and so I asked her to recommend me some series to watch and she is like, cute begging for my phone, etc as she had not got her's). She talks about guys discusses with her friends, has romantic media diet (reels consisting of like love romantic scenes or like those romantic kissing scenes and much more like overall), and has a past emotional "boyfriend" experience but is likely virgin.

Recent: She asks me to pick her from academy, but also physical pull backs like when I try to get close to her like ("chipak kyun raha hai"), occasional "bhaee", but it's not the formal one like "bhaii" I remember she once said that we are not blood relation like actual real brother sister it's kinda made up overall actually and it depends on her mood if it is good I become "yar" she calls me by name then and so like overall if not good then I don't know how to tell but it's mostly neutral like and also she tells me like her friends be telling her that do you know that x guy had hookup with her and so his videos got leaked and I have etc they all be discussing guys alot in group chats, and much more...

I'm attracted and want to escalate to makeout/hookup. No experience in flirting. How to lead without seeming desperate or triggering family drama? How to handle "bhaee" and pull backs?

She sometimes like repels even safe touches and so we like sit in car and going so her thigh touch mine she tends to get aside and sometimes says to move aside or so but sometimes there's like long contact on bike and sometimes in car too and sometimes you know we had this conversation in class and so the most spiciest talks and the girls being horny and boys mostly being dumb and quiet overall and the girls being kinda harami actually like that way and so like I want to know is there any chance for me and everything??

If anyone had something similar or so or have hookup with cousin I want to know.

I know size questions get asked a lot, but I'm genuinely stuck in my own head about this and need complete honesty from people who actually understand the scene here.

I'm 4.9-5.1 inches erect length, with girth around 4.2 to 4.3 inches mid-shaft. I know many say it's close to average, but I can't shake the feeling it's simply not enough. Completely, actually, overall. My specific fear is casual hookups in Lahore. The talk around size here feels harsh, and I don't know how much of it is real versus exaggerated online noise like I fear I will not be able to satisfy her I have heard that "size don't matter" i feel it's a lie that people tell you so you get relax and not stress about it but I think if I go for that she may mock make fun of me and everything else you could think of…

For those with actual experience giving or receiving in Pakistan's casual scene: is this genuinely enough to satisfy a partner? Does girth in this range feel like anything, or will it be a dealbreaker?

Would I be called as "small", "pencil", or she will fake moan or enthusiasm for all of it actually and never again like just one and done?

I don't want lies, fake satisfaction or such answers, I want brutally honest opinions and answers...

Thanks.