u/Jaaronh12

I have been into scat for many years and 99% of the time it's just watching porn of it. I've eaten from two people and the experiences are mixed. One was a Domme and forced me to eat it, and the other is myself. I've had success eating my own, but that comes with being with an online Domme or in a chatroom and being watched/made to do it. My wife is supportive of my kink but does not want to be involved. I tried eating hers that she left for me and without the force/watching, I didn't enjoy the experience.

The humiliation and degradation of eating is the biggest turn on and motivation for me, but it's so difficult to find partners for that. On my own, with no real accountability and no one watching me, it's not fun at all.

Has anyone found any loopholes to make totally solo play with their own scat work? A few things I've thought of:

-the obvious, finding an online Dom or Domme (I'm bi) to play with over cam, but I struggle to find a place where I find people truly interested (tried Fetlife and here)

-videos of Dommes directing the viewer to eat their own, but I've not found many of those that feel truly exciting.

Other than those, it feels like the only option is to find a Pro Dom/Domme in my area or just give up. It's a frustrating kink to have at times for sure.

Does anyone have any advice on how to enjoy solo scat play when your preference is very much skewed toward the humiliation/servitude/force aspect - other than “find yourself someone to feed you”? I am spending a week in a hotel by myself and would like to be able to enjoy the fetish, but I am almost certainly going to be on my own, and I doubt I’ll find any online play partners for it. 

I have been fed once by a Pro Domme and eaten some from my wife (who is not into it but left some for me once). I have also played through snapchat with a Domme with my own shit - which felt more akin to being fed from someone than eating my own, since I was being watched and forced. I don’t like to smear but I love the feeling of it dropping into my mouth and having to chew/eat at a good pace and continuing to eat when I think I can’t anymore. Doing it FOR someone or with someone overseeing it is so exciting

But man, I just struggle to get into the headspace when it's me on my own. The humiliation and force just isn't there and I end up feeling more disgust over it and lose the turn-on aspect.

Any genius tips or tricks to get into the headspace of being with someone else?