25 F4M - Married on paper but alone in reality
I got back home not long ago to a silent, empty house and too much time alone with my racing thoughts. I’m 25, married, and worn out feeling invisible and ignored, chasing a need I can’t even clearly describe anymore. I keep wondering what it it would be like to have someone actually see me, beyond just looking, but truly understanding the loneliness I hide behind my smile and the quiet yearning i mask with silence. Tonight my mind is is heading down some risky paths. Maybe I’m missing real connection. Maybe I miss feeling wanted. Maybe I miss the idea of someone staying up late to talk to me because they couldn’t get me off their mind. If you ever known what neglect feels like, you probably understand why even the smallest bit of attention can feel so powerfully addictive.