u/Lil_lian

last post was "shy boys make me feral" if you wanna go check it out, but tldr, I met a cute shy boy at a conference i was at and was soo needy for him, edged while thinking about him to all of you here.

I had edited that post but longer story is here. Edging with my new toy in me as I write this out.

The day after the last post, we didn't even make it until night. There was a one hour break between a few meetings and I just invited him up to my room again. I'm sorryyyy I just couldn't wait. I was soo distracted the whole day omg. It was quick and in broad daylight and we had to scramble to shower after but still soo worth it.

He came so much. I could feel him still dripping out of me even after I showered, after I was back in work clothes and everything. Was sooo fucking hot. Just had to let him know.

So I texted him with the invisible text thing over (networking) dinner that I could still feel him dripping out of me. Put my phone away and kept talking with everyone else like nothing was wrong, but I was watching him. His phone buzzing. Him glancing down at it mid conversation. Him checking it really quickly only to see it's an invisible text. Conversation pauses and the guy next to him talks to someone else. He checks the text and swallows. Glances over at me, I just smile a little and go back to talking with the guy next to me. Soo fun to tease him hehe.

He sends back nothing but a 🤤 a few minutes later.

I spend the next 3 nights in his room basically. Great deal for me, he had a nicer newer room anyways. Get creampied soo many times, he ends up bruising my tits pretty bad the first night and it's soo hot. Marks that no one else but me would know are there.

I'd tell him how good he feels. Would tell him exactly what to do to make me feel good. Yes right there. Mhm so good. Just a little lower. Yess don't stop keep going just like that baby. Little whimpers all desperate for him. Yes play with my tits. Yeah you can squeeze like that, harder if you want. Mmm wait for me for just a bit please. Wanna cum with you. Yes breed me baby do it, are you gonna do it?

He was so receptive to feedback hehe. Such a quick learner. A few hours in to the first night and I was a shivering mess at the end.

He has such a pretty and thick cock oh my goddd... Drooling just thinking about it. But only unfortunate part is I couldn't get him down my throat no matter how hard I tried 😫

He lovess stratching as well, digging his nails in, leaving little marks, and when I told him I like it when it hurts a little he got a lott bolder spanking me, left my ass all red fuck I wish I took a picture.

We end up spending a more time cuddling and talking and everything. End up asking him what he's into, I admit that I lowk had (have?) a porn problem and that reddit was my drug of choice. We end up having a long conversation about kink and porn addiction and past experiences and I told him about how I liked being able to turn my brain off sometimes when it's around someone who I know wouldn't hurt me. Loved the real and deep conversations I'd have with him between the fucking and teasing and everything.

He ends up admitting to basically also being a gooner, about the porn he likes, all his favorite tags and everything like how he likes it sloppy, I end up telling him that I love like degrading bimbo-y porn where the girl is just fucked out and happy, and I'd just keep playing into all the things he said he likes when we'd go back to fucking.

And that's the part that's melting my brain the most, that he uses reddit for porn a lot too. I wonder if he has or will see my posts on this account here and know it's me. I didn't tell him I post on here but I did tell him I use reddit mainly as my porn, and I've never told anyone else that. It drives me fucking crazy knowing he could see this, or the post before we even fucked of me admitting how desperate I was, or even just any of the videos and pictures I post for all you pervy gooners and goonnettes on here. Fuck.

If you see this c come to new york please. You know you can crash with me.

Soo i'm at like a multi-day conference type of thing and met this guy in one of the sessions. A few of us agree to get dinner nearby after changing into more comfortable clothes, and oh woah. He's cute. The suit did not do him service at ALL. Afterward, I head back to my room to do work, he goes to meet a local friend, but I start scheming.

Long story short I give him my room number so he can come pick up a thing when he gets back.

Could I have grabbed the thing and given it to him at the door like a normal person? Sure. But I didn't wanna, and from today I had a sliiight feeling that wasn't what he wanted either.

So I go let him in, he's hovering by the door, I'm like oh wait let me grab it, we're chatting, I'm fake looking for it, awww hold on I feel bad come in come in, oh here it is. But we keep yapping. Oh gosh wait yes please sit. No it's fiinee, I don't mind on my bed at all. More yap. Oh I love your earring, it looks so good on you. What did I have to work on? Don't worry about it I'll deal with it later, wait come closer let me show you this thing on my phone, mhm yes here.

3 hours later, we've laughed about stupid shit and got serious about family and mental health and whatever and then laughed again, and we're lying down on my bed, thiiiis close to being cuddled together, conversation slowing a little. We're tired. Touch barrier is broken at this point from like you know when you lightly hit someone to make a point to when laughing or whatever. He's not doing anything more than that, but I can tell he wants to but doesn't know what else to do.

I point out it is really late and we have an early day tomorrow, and that we should really probably get some sleep.

He agrees and says he really did like talking to me though. That he doesn't get to have these kinds of conversations often.

He's looking all like conflicted and bashful or whatever (cute). I'm sitting, feet dangling off the side of my bed.

I look at him and he looks at me and I giggle a little, asking "what?"

He looks away all shy, still fiddling with his shoe, saying something like "sorry I'm like just kinda awkward sometimes, I don't know, like--"

I cut off his mumbling with a soft laugh and a "you're so cute."

He freezes. Turns soo fucking red. Deer in headlights. Adorable.

Before he can manage to say anything I tell him to come here. He listens, so good for me, and I pull him down by the collar until my lips are on his. He's hesitant, only really mirroring what I do. Maybe inexperienced, maybe shy, who knows, who cares, it's cute and I want him whiny for me.

Anyways we make out for a bit, but I did end up sending him back to his room still. Emphasized that I liked this (because he is really freaking dense) but said goodnight at the door with another kiss. Teasing. It's so fun to tease.

I said it was because we needed sleep, which isn't a lie, because if anything else then we would not sleep at all.

I'm regretting it now though because now instead of fucking him I'm wet as fuck, imagining if he'd be all desperate like so many of you boys here, if he'd switch up and fuck me so hard I can't think, or if he'd listen and continue to be suchh a good boyyy, just like he's been the whole night. Wondering what he did when he went back to his room alone, if he touched himself thinking of me or if he tried his best to just go to sleep like I said he should. Thinking about the noise he'd make when I take him all the way down my throat, how he'd moan my name when I ride him raw and slow, how he'd react when I tell him shh don't pull out it's okay, I wanna feel you cum because of me, mhm yes inside baby inside, just like this. I just know he'd sound so pretty and needy.

Probably will spend most of tomorrow thinking about fucking him, and hopefully actually will fuck him tomorrow night.

I wonder what he'd think if he knew what I'm thinking. Fuck.

edit: I got impatient HAHA. Went to mine for a quickie when we had an hour free. His cock was like just about 6 inches but FAT. Filled me soooo good. Sitting back in another meeting now and can feel him dripping out of me <3

have been fixated on ass to pussy.

it’s definitely a guilty pleasure kink to me. would i ever ever try this irl? no. but watching girls get degraded in that way just makes me soo desperately squeeze my legs together and wanna touch.

and it’s so bad because its so against who i am as a person but sometimes i’m just a pussy and not a person okay?

i love overly commercialized porn where the girl looks so dumb and happy doing the most degrading things. object insertions, ass to pussy to mouth to wherever, eating cum out of another girl, playing with the cum like in a bukkake or something, anything where she truly is just a toy to be played with, a party favor, an object.

i stumbled on this type of stuff even before i was in middle school. don’t ask how but it definitely ruined my brain forever. please restrict your kids internet access or else they’ll end up like me. Like there’s this one video of a glory hole in czech that i see floating around online sometime that I remember seeing on xvideos yearsss ago that is just stuck in my brain. or another one where the girls were on a leash in the woods then tied up and forced to have some sort of, idk, grey goo stuffed into their pussies?

i dont know. just the way the girls were so horribly mistreated and they just go along with it is so pathetic and adorable and hot.

or those clips at the end of really rough videos of the actress assuring everyone that she’s fine and loved it. i know they’re fake. i know a lot of the porn industry is so so past even questionable. and i feel evil for it but i get off on knowing that.

like they don’t even have to be rough with her just because she’s already so good, so conditioned by the world that this is normal, to perform and be good. i wish i could just be like that with no consequences. fuck.

but i can’t so reddit is a healthier way for me to live out my fucktoy dreams </3

- working out. specifically hanging leg raises, hip thrusts (sometimes), anything on a bike, anything involving deep core work. and leg extensions for some reason. omfg. i nearly came last time i was on that machine and had to pause mid set. make it make sense.

- instagram posts of my friends and mutuals in their tiny little bikinis travelling or whatever, all these girls with their ass and tits out casually on my feed fuck it drives me crazy. I end up insta leaving the app and coming to reddit to watch porn instead.

- biking around the city wearing a tiny short dress or skirt. sometimes the skirt has shorts attached underneath but often there’s not. and i know people can definitely see underneath if they’re at the right angle. but fuck just feeling the seat press into my clit and seeing certain people’s trailing eyes makes me feel so hot and tingly and agh.

- wearing skimpy little outfits to do very innocent things. grocery shopping. studying at the library. doing some work on a laptop at a nice bar or something. just knowing i’m helping fuel many gooner fantasies casually even if i’m not interacting with anyone and just keeping to myself.

- all the men who approach me as a result of that last one. i don’t have to imagine if men are fantasizing about me, they basically tell me they are. and it’s amazing.

- wondering if a redditor has seen me in the city. i’m always outside and there’s enough of you gooners in nyc there has to be at least a few. i don’t think i’d ever say yes to a random guy who approached me, even if i didn’t think he looked bad, just because there’s no context, no personality, but if someone called me out for having this account?? i don’t even know how i’d react but it would be a very lucky day for whoever it is.

https://voca.ro/1nzqI7nb5ovd

Bless a certain other post who gave me the idea.

I need to be quiet because of roommates and thin walls but a little noise doesn’t hurt hehe.

It’s 3 am and I’ve been edging for just an hour or so. I started with just scrolling my fav miso and porn subreddits, fantasizing, slowly one finger in just feeling myself and my wetness. Eventually got the vibrator and held it there on low, pulsing, still just teasing myself, reading porn on here. Then I started touching and pinching at my neglected nipples and oh my godddd fuck I don’t know why but they’re literally a cheat code turn on for me, it’s like a direct button that just makes something deep in my stomach feel tight and instantly gets me so close to the edge.

When I switched off the pulsing to have the vibrator steady I didn’t realize how sensitive I already was and accidentally came like 20 seconds into it, you can hear me clicking the toy to the setting and cumming so quickly.

Of course I had to punish myself by overstimming afterwards 😵‍💫😵‍💫

I still need to get up early tomorrow for summer classes. Wow I’m screwed. But I hope you all like it <3