u/NewGirl900

Well, this text turned out longer than I had planned or expected, but I wanted to give you guys the full report of my experiences, so I hope you still enjoy this:

I recently posted about how I am currently in the process of getting confident in my own sexual desires and needs and acting out on them with pride and just truly letting go of my inhibitions holding me back. And during this process I developed some strategies to enable myself to do so without feeling bad about it and while protecting my sanity and physical wellbeing and as a first result I had 3 nights out at a porn theater/adult arcade/whatever you want to call it in my area where I never been before where I had some of the most fulfilling experiences I ever had since going out.

I am no stranger to visiting porn theaters, swinger clubs, sex parties, kinky parties, gay saunas and the likes as I started visiting those places frequently since pretty early on in my sissy life. I even started to organize my own parties for a queer and trans audience together with my bestie. And while I certainly had quite a few great experiences so far, I still felt like I was holding myself back and let my inhibitions get hold of me. I was a bit ashamed to truly let go and I was kinda concerned what others may think of me and that people might see me as a lesser person when I let go and give into my desires. And I still want to be respected and valued as a person and not just seen as a random set of holes, at least outside of dedicated play time. But every time I went out, I kinda felt like I was too passive and just waited for opportunities to come by on their own, which often led into mediocre nights and disappointment. So, I was thinking about how I can increase my odds of having more great experiences and developed some strategies that I wanted to put to test. And to do so I decided to visit a new location nearby, where I've never been before because I always heard mixed reviews which have not put this place up on top of the list of places I want to visit. So first, to paint you a picture, let me just give you a bit of information on the venue. 

So, this porn theater has 2 dedicated trans days, Wednesdays and Saturdays. It lies at the edge of the city center, which was also a point that contributed why I never wanted to visit, as its somewhat crowded nearby and also parking is a dread and I usually have to park somewhere outside of the center and then walk over which takes about 10-15 min.

The location has 4 floors. You have the ground floor, where they have a small sex shop and the counter where you get your locker keys and can also buy some drinks and stuff. In the basement, you have a bathroom, some lockers, a large screen with some couches and some spaces to lie, a gyn chair, and 2 smaller cabins you can lock. On the second floor, you also got some lockers, as well as multiple of those stereotypical single cabins where you have to put in cash to select a movie. You also have multiple lockable rooms with mats and beds where you can go to fuck, some with glory holes in the walls as well. On the third floor you have the large cinema, where you have a big screen up front, also a place to lie down right below that screen, and multiple levels with couches (pretty much like a regular movie theater, but with couches instead of the usual chairs). You also have another few lockable rooms with couches and screens and you also have a bar area, with some chairs, but the bar only opens on weekends in the evening.

Wednesday, May 13th - First visit

My first visit was on a Wednesday afternoon, where I had some time to kill and did not feel like staying home. So, I packed my stuff and drove over and headed towards the arcade. Inside I was greeted by the staff, who also took a minute to give me the short introduction to the location, and they sent me off to another trans woman, who appeared to be a regular there, to show me the location. So, after getting changed and storing my stuff in the locker, we went on a small tour through the location. My goal for the day was not necessarily to have sex, but rather just get a feel for the location and the people there, as every location has its own vibe you need to get accustomed to a bit (at least I do). So, after the tour I sat on one of the couches on the top floor and just waited. And there were a few guys interested in me, but at that moment I did not quite feel like doing stuff and I was still busy with processing the vibe. So, I declined their offers (BTW this was also before I decided to write my playbook with my strategies; that was after this visit).

However, a bit later a guy I already knew from a different location and who I had fun with some long time ago came along. So, he sat a bit beside me, and we chatted for some time, where he also started to touch my leg and getting all handsy which helped to get me in the mood. We then decided to head down to the second floor and lock ourselves into one of the rooms. We both made out for a while and let our hands do some work before we got undressed and I got on my knees and started to suck him off. However, that only lasted 5 minutes before he already came, which I found really disappointing, as I was hoping that he would also fuck me and we had a bit more time on hands. After he came, he quickly dressed and pissed off, leaving me still processing what just happened... Needless to say my mood did not quite improved through this. But I got dressed, fixed my makeup and went back through the location. However, it was rather empty that day and a lot of those who were there were not quite Prince Charming himself. So, I just sat there and waited.

Eventually that other trans women came along and we talked for a bit before she also started to get touchy with me, which I allowed her and just waited what will happen. Eventually touching led to making out and some mutual petting, but since we drew a bit of a crowd and the couch we were on was not quite the most comfortable place, we decided to move to one of the rooms with a mat in it. Here we continued to make out and eventually we undressed and jerked each other off and I also took my vibrator to use on each other, and it was quite nice to be honest. However, the mood was killed by some idiots who kept banging on the door and loudly asking to come in up to the point where they even got scolded by the staff, which still did not make them stop though. This was pretty distracting and eventually we decided to abort things. It was still quite nice though, even though none of us came. On my way down I informed the staff that they were still disturbing us, and they made sure that those guys had their last visit there.

Afterwards we just sat on the couches in the basement and just talked for a bit but since not much was up, we decided to get dressed and leave.

So, after all, that first visit was nothing special. But as mentioned before, this was mainly to get to know the location and beyond that I still had some fun, even though not quite the one I wanted. It was an okay visit though.

Saturday, May 16th - Second visit

Despite rather mediocre results on my first visit, I wanted to give the location another chance, but this time on a Saturday, as during the week things can be a bit slow in those locations. And I also saw beforehand that there already were quite a few entries on the guest list, so I already knew there would be people there, even some I already know. Another difference was that I also wanted to make sure to increase my chances by putting myself in the right mindset. My plan was to get me in the mood while getting ready at home with some hypnos and porn running in the background and I wanted to go into it with the mindset of being open and confident and acting like I own the place, as I remembered the last time I had this attitude some real magic stuff happened.

So, I had my game plan, got ready and did my prep and drove over once again. Upon arriving and getting changed I took a stroll to the location and eventually ended up back on the couch in the big cinema on the top floor, already with a few guys following in a distance. I sat down and immediately a rather young guy (probably in his early 20s) sat beside me and started to get touchy. But since I was only at the location for some minutes and that dude was a bit young for my taste I declined and told him that I was not quite in the mood yet, but maybe later, so he left.

A bit later an older guy (maybe around 60 years old) sat beside me, and we talked for a bit. Eventually he also started to touch my arm and my leg and gently caressed them, which I let happen, as he seemed nice and friendly enough to be the one that puts me into the mood for some kinky fun. Eventually he asked me to go into a cabin, so we went downstairs and locked ourselves in. We stood close to each other, and he started kissing my neck and let his hands run over my back and my arms and my ass, while I held him close and eventually started to stroke his cock through his pants. We started to undress each other and while he licked my nipples I continued to stroke him. Eventually he got a condom and asked me to bend over, which I did. I lubed myself up and placed myself, so he had easy access. He entered me and started to fuck me real hard for some time, before he asked me to lie on my back. I turned around, lifted my legs on his shoulder and he continued pounding me for quite some time. We changed positions once again and he had me kneeling in front of him on the mat, him behind me and he kept pounding me for another few minutes before he finally came into the condom. I caught my breath for a moment and got ready to dress and leave, but to my total surprise, he did not try to immediately leave, but instead he just lied down and so we cuddled for another 15-20 minutes, which caught me a bit off-guard, as most guys only want to fuck right off after they came. So, this was a pleasant surprise. Therefore, we just lay there and talked for a while before deciding to head out again.

In the meantime, the bar on the top floor has opened and so most people gravitated around that for the evening. So, I sat there for a while and talked to a few people before once again heading over to the couch in the big cinema. A moment later a friend of mine, who I knew from earlier - another trans woman - entered and sat beside me and we also talked for a moment, before eventually we were surrounded by a few guys. They started to get brave and started to touch her and some even started to take their dicks out and stroke them. While I was a bit hesitant, she got to work and started blowing 2 dudes, while I at first only watched and eventually let some guys start to touch me. One of them was the younger guy from the start, which I only realized a few minutes later, as there were quite a few hands on me at that point. Eventually one of the guys requested to move to a different space, as this was getting a bit crowded and it was hard to handle multiple guys in that limited space. So, we went to one of the rooms on the top floor, but since I was in the mood for multiple guys, I called that the door stays open. Even though 1 or 2 guys were reluctant at first I still insisted and then I sat on the couch, where I got surrounded by 3 guys who continued having their hands all over me, with another 2 or 3 in the background watching. Eventually the guys next to me had their dicks out, so I started to get to work with mouth and hands and took turns blowing them. Eventually I felt like getting fucked, so I handed out condoms to the guys, but one did not want to fuck me, so I was left with 2. I knelt on the couch in a way that I can blow one while the other fucks me so they both took turns spitroasting me, with the other guys still watching. I really felt like a slut at this point, and it felt incredible. Eventually they both came and shortly afterwards the crowd disbanded and I was left alone on the couch once again trying to catch breath and to process what just happened. Since I wanted a moment for myself, I locked the door and also took this opportunity to take some photos in the mirror 🙈 Once I have collected myself I got dressed and went to fix my makeup before eventually heading back to the bar area where I sat on one of the chairs.

A bit afterwards a pretty attractive guy sat next to me and we started to talk. He was from the same city as me and this was actually his first time ever in a place like this. So, I explained some stuff to him and we also talked about clubs and the differences and some other stuff and we got along pretty well. Eventually he went downstairs to have a smoke, so I headed back to the big cinema. A bit later he sat beside me and we continued talking and for some reason I ended up telling him that most guys there have the quirk that they usually are not brave enough to talk to girls, but instead wait for some action to happen before they approach or at least that they need the sense of something could happen so that they follow. So, we decided to put this to the test and give the guys a show. We did a quick round through the location and headed back to the big cinema, and we actually had a few guys following in the distance. So, we sat on the couch right at the front of the room and I started to stroke him through his pants before he eventually pulled his dick out. I knelt right next to him on the couch in a way that my ass was pointing upward, inviting anyone to touch it and then I started sucking. It was all well until the guy started to take my head and pull it deep down on his cock, which caught me a bit by surprise, so I started tearing up and gagging, before he eventually let go. I took a second to breathe and he made sure I was fine, which was nice from him. So, after a second, I continued sucking him and he once again went a bit rougher, which at this point was not as much of a problem anymore, as I now was prepared. And despite me gagging and drooling all over his cock and the couch I still enjoyed it. While I was focused on him, I still noticed that we had gathered a bit of a crowd, but despite him signing and telling the others that they can touch me and join us noone really felt brave enough. So, I continued with him. Eventually he asked me to suck on his balls while he was jerking himself, before he finally took my head and shoved his dick down my throat again, where he apparently came, which I did not quite realize at first. Only as he slowed down and the taste of his cum started creeping in my mouth I knew. We both took a minute to calm down before heading to the bathroom where I once again had to take some selfies of my ruined makeup, before fixing it once again. The guy and I sat for a moment and talked for another while before he wanted to go for a smoke again. So, I took another stroll through the location but nothing more happened. Unfortunately, somehow the guy disappeared afterwards, which I am a bit frustrated about, as I kinda wanted to give him my number to stay in contact. I hope that maybe we will cross together again someday.

As we were heading towards closing time and more people left, I got changed and headed back to the car, totally happy with the events of the day. Going in with the right mindset and being open has certainly helped to create all the opportunities for those experiences and I eventually decided to take some time to truly examine why all of this has worked and what I can do to maximize the chances of those things happening again. Obviously, you cannot control all factors, but I wanted to make sure to do all I can control on my end. Therefore, over the days afterwards I worked on my strategies which eventually ended in my playbook, which acts as a manifest for me to ensure I do all I can.

Wednesday, May 27th - Third visit

Despite rather mediocre results on the Wednesday before I still wanted to have more experiences like I had on Saturday and I wanted to put my playbook to the test. So, I decided to once again head over. After arriving and changing and while doing my initial round through the location I immediately noticed something that got me both excited and nervous. I was the only girl around at the time!

So, while doing my round I could feel all eyes on me and I heard multiple footsteps following me as I was walking along. I eventually got to my usual spot on the couch in the cinema on top and while noone sat directly beside me at first I could feel and see from the corner of my eyes that there were a lot of guys standing behind me. I tried to stay cool and just do my usual mental routine of arriving and taking in the vibe and eventually one older guy got brave and asked if he may sit beside me, which I allowed. A minute after he started to touch my leg, which I also allowed, prompting him to be a bit braver and touching other areas like my belly and my breasts, which I also allowed. I closed my eyes to focus on the sensations and a bit afterwards I felt more hands on me, more daring ones. They were kneading my breasts and pinching my nipples, rubbing my belly and my shoulders. I opened my eyes and saw 5 guys surrounding me, 2 already with their cocks out. The second guy who got his hands on me stepped from behind me in front of me, where he also focused more on my legs and thighs, but eventually he tried to get onto my crotch, which I instantly told him off for, as I did not want to be touched there. He complied, but he eventually tried it again, so I had to get a bit more direct with him and stick to my boundaries, which seemed to get the message across, so he focused on my legs and eventually even started to suck on my toes, which I also enjoyed. Eventually I signed the two guys with their cocks out to come closer, so I started stroking and sucking them. However, since I had to twist my body quite a bit to make it work, I decided to take things to the front of the room, on the mat beneath the screen, as there was more space. A part of the guys followed as I laid onto the mat, head on the edge ready to suck guys off. Another part stayed back, so I had to encourage them to come closer again. While I laid there, I sucked 3 guys off, while other guys were touching my body and fingering my ass. I did not even know how many in total were around me, but it was hot af.

Eventually after I had finished most guys and had one older guy who did not finish at all and did not even get hard, I had to call for a break. So, I went to fix my makeup and eventually headed back to my couch. A minute later a guy in his 30s sat next to me and immediately started to pull his dick out and touch me, which I had to stop at the moment, as it was maybe 5 minutes after serving all the other guys. So, I still needed a minute or two. Unfortunately, this guy also needed a second no until he put his cock away and left, so my interest in him decreased a lot at this point. After I rested enough and was ready for the next round, I took a round to the location and ended up in a different room where they had some trans porn running and 3 chairs next to each other opposite of the screen. So, I sat in the middle one and waited. And it took a minute or so and some guy sat to my left and started to stroke himself. Usually I dislike that, as I feel like people can at least say hello and exchange a few words beforehand, but in this case, I just waited for what happened. Eventually he started to get touchy with me and had his hands on my nylons, so I let it play out. This view has caught the attention of a different guy who took the chair on my left and a bit later I had his hands on me as well. They both got braver and I had their hands all over my body and the second guy kissing my neck and pulling on my nipples. I also started to get my hands on them and stroked the one on my left who already had his dick out and the other on my right through his pants.

After some time, the one on my right suggested to move location, so we went next door to a room you can lock. The first dude sat in front of me on the couch and I immediately bent down to start sucking while the other dude started to knead my ass, giving it a few slaps every now and then and eventually started to finger me. This went for a moment, before the second dude also got his dick out so I sucked him as well. A bit later the second dude grabbed a condom, so I lubed myself up and knelt on the couch so I could suck the first one off while the second one fucked me pretty good and hard. Eventually the dude pulled out, took the condom off and came all over my back and my ass while I continued sucking the other guy. While I kept doing that the other dude was being a gentleman and wiped off his cum from me with a paper towel before leaving the room and me and the other guy alone. However, the other guy got some problems getting hard, let alone cumming, so he started to take over and jerk himself off while he fingered my ass. This seemed to do the trick and finally he came as well. After he left, I stayed back in the room and locked the door for a while to collect myself again, before heading to fix my makeup and back onto the couch in the big cinema. Fun little thing I overheard when heading back was that older dude from round one who did not cum at all who said to another guy "I got blown by this lady earlier and she did a great job". I pretended to have not heard this, but I had to smile a bit, as being called a lady gave me a bit of euphoria, even though it has its own irony that it has happened in those kind of circumstances.

A few minutes later the second dude from earlier who had fucked me and came on my back sat behind me and started to massage my shoulders and kiss my neck and also had his hands on my breast which all felt really good so I closed my eyes again, until I realized someone else sitting next to me and also starting to touch me. I opened my eyes and it was the guy I rejected earlier on. I was not quite keen, but I let it happen. He tried a few times to take my hand and place it on his crotch, but I stiff-armed him and let the guys do their work. Eventually the first guy left, leaving me alone with the rejected dude, who kept nagging me to play with him. I eventually thought to myself to just give him a chance and when things will not improve, I can still abort. So, I started to stroke his cock and a bit later agreed to head over to a different cabin. He sat on the couch, and I sat beside him and started to suck him off for a moment, before he started to grab my head and to fuck my throat. I was once again a bit surprised and gagged immediately and had to take a moment to breathe, but he immediately asked if I was good. I said yes and continued sucking which he took as the sign to continue fucking my throat. I was able to endure a bit longer this time but eventually had to tap out again and catch my breath. He then stood up and stood in front of me, grabbing my head and roughly fucked my mouth, pushing it deeper when I started gagging until I couldn't hold it anymore and puked a bit over his dick. He immediately apologized though and cleaned what had spilled on the floor and asked if I was fine, but to be honest, I kinda really enjoyed being manhandled this way. So, I assured him that its fine and we continued for a bit. Especially since he immediately stopped when I was tapping out. So, I kinda trusted him here. At this point I had my makeup already ruined with tears and spit all over it, but I loved every second of it. After quite some time of him shoving his dick down my throat, he wanted to fuck me, so I handed him a condom, lubed myself up and knelt on the couch my ass pointing up to him. He then proceeded to fuck my ass just as hard as he fucked my throat before for quite some time, before asking me to ride him. So, we switched positions with him sitting on the couch and me on top of him. Thil also went for some time before we went into missionary with me laying on my back on the couch my legs over my head and him pounding away. Eventually he wanted to get sucked again, so we got rid of the condom, and I sat on the couch with him standing in front of me and I sucked him for a while once again with him manhandling my throat until he told me that he is close to cumming. So I slid down the couch, kneeling in front of him, mouth wide open looking at him with wide eyed ready for him to cum on my face, which he did and he came quite a lot and I even got some in my eye, which was not as pleasant. He then proceeded to spread his cum all over my face with his dick before I sucked it clean and we eventually both fell onto the couch being all spent. We sat there for a minute and just processed what happened before then proceeding to dress up and collect our stuff, but not before asking him to take a few pictures of my cum stained face 🙈. However, I did not want to give up my trophy that easily, so I decided to not wipe off his cum and instead just took a small stroll through the rooms with his seed still all over my face. I even was considering for a moment to leave it on and do a cum walk to my car later on, which would have been super spicy as my car was 10 min away and the theater is near the city center. But I decided to clean myself up and fix my makeup (or rather redo it at this point...), as it would have been somewhat exciting, but also a bit too much and it would have pulled others into my kink which is a big no-go.

After fixing my makeup it was also already nearly closing time, so I just sat on one of the couches in the basement for a bit and just relaxed and chilled. An older guy came along and sat next to me, and we started to talk for a bit, and he seemed to be interested, but I was done for the night and rather exhausted and hungry. Plus, it was closing time, so I got changed and headed back to my car as the happy little slut I have always wanted to be.

And that concludes my report of the recent visits. While the first visit was rather slow and boring, the other 2 nights really made up for that and those are 2 nights I will remember for a long time. And I truly hope that those experiences have helped me to enable my inner slut more often. At least that is what I try to work on for now, so that I can have more of these experiences in the future. Thank you all for reading, and I am happy to answer any questions in the comments if you have any.

Well, this text turned out longer than I had planned or expected, but I wanted to give you guys the full report of my experiences, so I hope you still enjoy this:

I recently posted about how I am currently in the process of getting confident in my own sexual desires and needs and acting out on them with pride and just truly letting go of my inhibitions holding me back. And during this process I developed some strategies to enable myself to do so without feeling bad about it and while protecting my sanity and physical wellbeing and as a first result I had 3 nights out at a porn theater/adult arcade/whatever you want to call it in my area where I never been before where I had some of the most fulfilling experiences I ever had since going out.

I am no stranger to visiting porn theaters, swinger clubs, sex parties, kinky parties, gay saunas and the likes as I started visiting those places frequently since pretty early on in my sissy life. I even started to organize my own parties for a queer and trans audience together with my bestie. And while I certainly had quite a few great experiences so far, I still felt like I was holding myself back and let my inhibitions get hold of me. I was a bit ashamed to truly let go and I was kinda concerned what others may think of me and that people might see me as a lesser person when I let go and give into my desires. And I still want to be respected and valued as a person and not just seen as a random set of holes, at least outside of dedicated play time. But every time I went out, I kinda felt like I was too passive and just waited for opportunities to come by on their own, which often led into mediocre nights and disappointment. So, I was thinking about how I can increase my odds of having more great experiences and developed some strategies that I wanted to put to test. And to do so I decided to visit a new location nearby, where I've never been before because I always heard mixed reviews which have not put this place up on top of the list of places I want to visit. So first, to paint you a picture, let me just give you a bit of information on the venue. 

So, this porn theater has 2 dedicated trans days, Wednesdays and Saturdays. It lies at the edge of the city center, which was also a point that contributed why I never wanted to visit, as its somewhat crowded nearby and also parking is a dread and I usually have to park somewhere outside of the center and then walk over which takes about 10-15 min.

The location has 4 floors. You have the ground floor, where they have a small sex shop and the counter where you get your locker keys and can also buy some drinks and stuff. In the basement, you have a bathroom, some lockers, a large screen with some couches and some spaces to lie, a gyn chair, and 2 smaller cabins you can lock. On the second floor, you also got some lockers, as well as multiple of those stereotypical single cabins where you have to put in cash to select a movie. You also have multiple lockable rooms with mats and beds where you can go to fuck, some with glory holes in the walls as well. On the third floor you have the large cinema, where you have a big screen up front, also a place to lie down right below that screen, and multiple levels with couches (pretty much like a regular movie theater, but with couches instead of the usual chairs). You also have another few lockable rooms with couches and screens and you also have a bar area, with some chairs, but the bar only opens on weekends in the evening.

Wednesday, May 13th - First visit

My first visit was on a Wednesday afternoon, where I had some time to kill and did not feel like staying home. So, I packed my stuff and drove over and headed towards the arcade. Inside I was greeted by the staff, who also took a minute to give me the short introduction to the location, and they sent me off to another trans woman, who appeared to be a regular there, to show me the location. So, after getting changed and storing my stuff in the locker, we went on a small tour through the location. My goal for the day was not necessarily to have sex, but rather just get a feel for the location and the people there, as every location has its own vibe you need to get accustomed to a bit (at least I do). So, after the tour I sat on one of the couches on the top floor and just waited. And there were a few guys interested in me, but at that moment I did not quite feel like doing stuff and I was still busy with processing the vibe. So, I declined their offers (BTW this was also before I decided to write my playbook with my strategies; that was after this visit).

However, a bit later a guy I already knew from a different location and who I had fun with some long time ago came along. So, he sat a bit beside me, and we chatted for some time, where he also started to touch my leg and getting all handsy which helped to get me in the mood. We then decided to head down to the second floor and lock ourselves into one of the rooms. We both made out for a while and let our hands do some work before we got undressed and I got on my knees and started to suck him off. However, that only lasted 5 minutes before he already came, which I found really disappointing, as I was hoping that he would also fuck me and we had a bit more time on hands. After he came, he quickly dressed and pissed off, leaving me still processing what just happened... Needless to say my mood did not quite improved through this. But I got dressed, fixed my makeup and went back through the location. However, it was rather empty that day and a lot of those who were there were not quite Prince Charming himself. So, I just sat there and waited.

Eventually that other trans women came along and we talked for a bit before she also started to get touchy with me, which I allowed her and just waited what will happen. Eventually touching led to making out and some mutual petting, but since we drew a bit of a crowd and the couch we were on was not quite the most comfortable place, we decided to move to one of the rooms with a mat in it. Here we continued to make out and eventually we undressed and jerked each other off and I also took my vibrator to use on each other, and it was quite nice to be honest. However, the mood was killed by some idiots who kept banging on the door and loudly asking to come in up to the point where they even got scolded by the staff, which still did not make them stop though. This was pretty distracting and eventually we decided to abort things. It was still quite nice though, even though none of us came. On my way down I informed the staff that they were still disturbing us, and they made sure that those guys had their last visit there.

Afterwards we just sat on the couches in the basement and just talked for a bit but since not much was up, we decided to get dressed and leave.

So, after all, that first visit was nothing special. But as mentioned before, this was mainly to get to know the location and beyond that I still had some fun, even though not quite the one I wanted. It was an okay visit though.

Saturday, May 16th - Second visit

Despite rather mediocre results on my first visit, I wanted to give the location another chance, but this time on a Saturday, as during the week things can be a bit slow in those locations. And I also saw beforehand that there already were quite a few entries on the guest list, so I already knew there would be people there, even some I already know. Another difference was that I also wanted to make sure to increase my chances by putting myself in the right mindset. My plan was to get me in the mood while getting ready at home with some hypnos and porn running in the background and I wanted to go into it with the mindset of being open and confident and acting like I own the place, as I remembered the last time I had this attitude some real magic stuff happened.

So, I had my game plan, got ready and did my prep and drove over once again. Upon arriving and getting changed I took a stroll to the location and eventually ended up back on the couch in the big cinema on the top floor, already with a few guys following in a distance. I sat down and immediately a rather young guy (probably in his early 20s) sat beside me and started to get touchy. But since I was only at the location for some minutes and that dude was a bit young for my taste I declined and told him that I was not quite in the mood yet, but maybe later, so he left.

A bit later an older guy (maybe around 60 years old) sat beside me, and we talked for a bit. Eventually he also started to touch my arm and my leg and gently caressed them, which I let happen, as he seemed nice and friendly enough to be the one that puts me into the mood for some kinky fun. Eventually he asked me to go into a cabin, so we went downstairs and locked ourselves in. We stood close to each other, and he started kissing my neck and let his hands run over my back and my arms and my ass, while I held him close and eventually started to stroke his cock through his pants. We started to undress each other and while he licked my nipples I continued to stroke him. Eventually he got a condom and asked me to bend over, which I did. I lubed myself up and placed myself, so he had easy access. He entered me and started to fuck me real hard for some time, before he asked me to lie on my back. I turned around, lifted my legs on his shoulder and he continued pounding me for quite some time. We changed positions once again and he had me kneeling in front of him on the mat, him behind me and he kept pounding me for another few minutes before he finally came into the condom. I caught my breath for a moment and got ready to dress and leave, but to my total surprise, he did not try to immediately leave, but instead he just lied down and so we cuddled for another 15-20 minutes, which caught me a bit off-guard, as most guys only want to fuck right off after they came. So, this was a pleasant surprise. Therefore, we just lay there and talked for a while before deciding to head out again.

In the meantime, the bar on the top floor has opened and so most people gravitated around that for the evening. So, I sat there for a while and talked to a few people before once again heading over to the couch in the big cinema. A moment later a friend of mine, who I knew from earlier - another trans woman - entered and sat beside me and we also talked for a moment, before eventually we were surrounded by a few guys. They started to get brave and started to touch her and some even started to take their dicks out and stroke them. While I was a bit hesitant, she got to work and started blowing 2 dudes, while I at first only watched and eventually let some guys start to touch me. One of them was the younger guy from the start, which I only realized a few minutes later, as there were quite a few hands on me at that point. Eventually one of the guys requested to move to a different space, as this was getting a bit crowded and it was hard to handle multiple guys in that limited space. So, we went to one of the rooms on the top floor, but since I was in the mood for multiple guys, I called that the door stays open. Even though 1 or 2 guys were reluctant at first I still insisted and then I sat on the couch, where I got surrounded by 3 guys who continued having their hands all over me, with another 2 or 3 in the background watching. Eventually the guys next to me had their dicks out, so I started to get to work with mouth and hands and took turns blowing them. Eventually I felt like getting fucked, so I handed out condoms to the guys, but one did not want to fuck me, so I was left with 2. I knelt on the couch in a way that I can blow one while the other fucks me so they both took turns spitroasting me, with the other guys still watching. I really felt like a slut at this point, and it felt incredible. Eventually they both came and shortly afterwards the crowd disbanded and I was left alone on the couch once again trying to catch breath and to process what just happened. Since I wanted a moment for myself, I locked the door and also took this opportunity to take some photos in the mirror 🙈 Once I have collected myself I got dressed and went to fix my makeup before eventually heading back to the bar area where I sat on one of the chairs.

A bit afterwards a pretty attractive guy sat next to me and we started to talk. He was from the same city as me and this was actually his first time ever in a place like this. So, I explained some stuff to him and we also talked about clubs and the differences and some other stuff and we got along pretty well. Eventually he went downstairs to have a smoke, so I headed back to the big cinema. A bit later he sat beside me and we continued talking and for some reason I ended up telling him that most guys there have the quirk that they usually are not brave enough to talk to girls, but instead wait for some action to happen before they approach or at least that they need the sense of something could happen so that they follow. So, we decided to put this to the test and give the guys a show. We did a quick round through the location and headed back to the big cinema, and we actually had a few guys following in the distance. So, we sat on the couch right at the front of the room and I started to stroke him through his pants before he eventually pulled his dick out. I knelt right next to him on the couch in a way that my ass was pointing upward, inviting anyone to touch it and then I started sucking. It was all well until the guy started to take my head and pull it deep down on his cock, which caught me a bit by surprise, so I started tearing up and gagging, before he eventually let go. I took a second to breathe and he made sure I was fine, which was nice from him. So, after a second, I continued sucking him and he once again went a bit rougher, which at this point was not as much of a problem anymore, as I now was prepared. And despite me gagging and drooling all over his cock and the couch I still enjoyed it. While I was focused on him, I still noticed that we had gathered a bit of a crowd, but despite him signing and telling the others that they can touch me and join us noone really felt brave enough. So, I continued with him. Eventually he asked me to suck on his balls while he was jerking himself, before he finally took my head and shoved his dick down my throat again, where he apparently came, which I did not quite realize at first. Only as he slowed down and the taste of his cum started creeping in my mouth I knew. We both took a minute to calm down before heading to the bathroom where I once again had to take some selfies of my ruined makeup, before fixing it once again. The guy and I sat for a moment and talked for another while before he wanted to go for a smoke again. So, I took another stroll through the location but nothing more happened. Unfortunately, somehow the guy disappeared afterwards, which I am a bit frustrated about, as I kinda wanted to give him my number to stay in contact. I hope that maybe we will cross together again someday.

As we were heading towards closing time and more people left, I got changed and headed back to the car, totally happy with the events of the day. Going in with the right mindset and being open has certainly helped to create all the opportunities for those experiences and I eventually decided to take some time to truly examine why all of this has worked and what I can do to maximize the chances of those things happening again. Obviously, you cannot control all factors, but I wanted to make sure to do all I can control on my end. Therefore, over the days afterwards I worked on my strategies which eventually ended in my playbook, which acts as a manifest for me to ensure I do all I can.

Wednesday, May 27th - Third visit

Despite rather mediocre results on the Wednesday before I still wanted to have more experiences like I had on Saturday and I wanted to put my playbook to the test. So, I decided to once again head over. After arriving and changing and while doing my initial round through the location I immediately noticed something that got me both excited and nervous. I was the only girl around at the time!

So, while doing my round I could feel all eyes on me and I heard multiple footsteps following me as I was walking along. I eventually got to my usual spot on the couch in the cinema on top and while noone sat directly beside me at first I could feel and see from the corner of my eyes that there were a lot of guys standing behind me. I tried to stay cool and just do my usual mental routine of arriving and taking in the vibe and eventually one older guy got brave and asked if he may sit beside me, which I allowed. A minute after he started to touch my leg, which I also allowed, prompting him to be a bit braver and touching other areas like my belly and my breasts, which I also allowed. I closed my eyes to focus on the sensations and a bit afterwards I felt more hands on me, more daring ones. They were kneading my breasts and pinching my nipples, rubbing my belly and my shoulders. I opened my eyes and saw 5 guys surrounding me, 2 already with their cocks out. The second guy who got his hands on me stepped from behind me in front of me, where he also focused more on my legs and thighs, but eventually he tried to get onto my crotch, which I instantly told him off for, as I did not want to be touched there. He complied, but he eventually tried it again, so I had to get a bit more direct with him and stick to my boundaries, which seemed to get the message across, so he focused on my legs and eventually even started to suck on my toes, which I also enjoyed. Eventually I signed the two guys with their cocks out to come closer, so I started stroking and sucking them. However, since I had to twist my body quite a bit to make it work, I decided to take things to the front of the room, on the mat beneath the screen, as there was more space. A part of the guys followed as I laid onto the mat, head on the edge ready to suck guys off. Another part stayed back, so I had to encourage them to come closer again. While I laid there, I sucked 3 guys off, while other guys were touching my body and fingering my ass. I did not even know how many in total were around me, but it was hot af.

Eventually after I had finished most guys and had one older guy who did not finish at all and did not even get hard, I had to call for a break. So, I went to fix my makeup and eventually headed back to my couch. A minute later a guy in his 30s sat next to me and immediately started to pull his dick out and touch me, which I had to stop at the moment, as it was maybe 5 minutes after serving all the other guys. So, I still needed a minute or two. Unfortunately, this guy also needed a second no until he put his cock away and left, so my interest in him decreased a lot at this point. After I rested enough and was ready for the next round, I took a round to the location and ended up in a different room where they had some trans porn running and 3 chairs next to each other opposite of the screen. So, I sat in the middle one and waited. And it took a minute or so and some guy sat to my left and started to stroke himself. Usually I dislike that, as I feel like people can at least say hello and exchange a few words beforehand, but in this case, I just waited for what happened. Eventually he started to get touchy with me and had his hands on my nylons, so I let it play out. This view has caught the attention of a different guy who took the chair on my left and a bit later I had his hands on me as well. They both got braver and I had their hands all over my body and the second guy kissing my neck and pulling on my nipples. I also started to get my hands on them and stroked the one on my left who already had his dick out and the other on my right through his pants.

After some time, the one on my right suggested to move location, so we went next door to a room you can lock. The first dude sat in front of me on the couch and I immediately bent down to start sucking while the other dude started to knead my ass, giving it a few slaps every now and then and eventually started to finger me. This went for a moment, before the second dude also got his dick out so I sucked him as well. A bit later the second dude grabbed a condom, so I lubed myself up and knelt on the couch so I could suck the first one off while the second one fucked me pretty good and hard. Eventually the dude pulled out, took the condom off and came all over my back and my ass while I continued sucking the other guy. While I kept doing that the other dude was being a gentleman and wiped off his cum from me with a paper towel before leaving the room and me and the other guy alone. However, the other guy got some problems getting hard, let alone cumming, so he started to take over and jerk himself off while he fingered my ass. This seemed to do the trick and finally he came as well. After he left, I stayed back in the room and locked the door for a while to collect myself again, before heading to fix my makeup and back onto the couch in the big cinema. Fun little thing I overheard when heading back was that older dude from round one who did not cum at all who said to another guy "I got blown by this lady earlier and she did a great job". I pretended to have not heard this, but I had to smile a bit, as being called a lady gave me a bit of euphoria, even though it has its own irony that it has happened in those kind of circumstances.

A few minutes later the second dude from earlier who had fucked me and came on my back sat behind me and started to massage my shoulders and kiss my neck and also had his hands on my breast which all felt really good so I closed my eyes again, until I realized someone else sitting next to me and also starting to touch me. I opened my eyes and it was the guy I rejected earlier on. I was not quite keen, but I let it happen. He tried a few times to take my hand and place it on his crotch, but I stiff-armed him and let the guys do their work. Eventually the first guy left, leaving me alone with the rejected dude, who kept nagging me to play with him. I eventually thought to myself to just give him a chance and when things will not improve, I can still abort. So, I started to stroke his cock and a bit later agreed to head over to a different cabin. He sat on the couch, and I sat beside him and started to suck him off for a moment, before he started to grab my head and to fuck my throat. I was once again a bit surprised and gagged immediately and had to take a moment to breathe, but he immediately asked if I was good. I said yes and continued sucking which he took as the sign to continue fucking my throat. I was able to endure a bit longer this time but eventually had to tap out again and catch my breath. He then stood up and stood in front of me, grabbing my head and roughly fucked my mouth, pushing it deeper when I started gagging until I couldn't hold it anymore and puked a bit over his dick. He immediately apologized though and cleaned what had spilled on the floor and asked if I was fine, but to be honest, I kinda really enjoyed being manhandled this way. So, I assured him that its fine and we continued for a bit. Especially since he immediately stopped when I was tapping out. So, I kinda trusted him here. At this point I had my makeup already ruined with tears and spit all over it, but I loved every second of it. After quite some time of him shoving his dick down my throat, he wanted to fuck me, so I handed him a condom, lubed myself up and knelt on the couch my ass pointing up to him. He then proceeded to fuck my ass just as hard as he fucked my throat before for quite some time, before asking me to ride him. So, we switched positions with him sitting on the couch and me on top of him. Thil also went for some time before we went into missionary with me laying on my back on the couch my legs over my head and him pounding away. Eventually he wanted to get sucked again, so we got rid of the condom, and I sat on the couch with him standing in front of me and I sucked him for a while once again with him manhandling my throat until he told me that he is close to cumming. So I slid down the couch, kneeling in front of him, mouth wide open looking at him with wide eyed ready for him to cum on my face, which he did and he came quite a lot and I even got some in my eye, which was not as pleasant. He then proceeded to spread his cum all over my face with his dick before I sucked it clean and we eventually both fell onto the couch being all spent. We sat there for a minute and just processed what happened before then proceeding to dress up and collect our stuff, but not before asking him to take a few pictures of my cum stained face 🙈. However, I did not want to give up my trophy that easily, so I decided to not wipe off his cum and instead just took a small stroll through the rooms with his seed still all over my face. I even was considering for a moment to leave it on and do a cum walk to my car later on, which would have been super spicy as my car was 10 min away and the theater is near the city center. But I decided to clean myself up and fix my makeup (or rather redo it at this point...), as it would have been somewhat exciting, but also a bit too much and it would have pulled others into my kink which is a big no-go.

After fixing my makeup it was also already nearly closing time, so I just sat on one of the couches in the basement for a bit and just relaxed and chilled. An older guy came along and sat next to me, and we started to talk for a bit, and he seemed to be interested, but I was done for the night and rather exhausted and hungry. Plus, it was closing time, so I got changed and headed back to my car as the happy little slut I have always wanted to be.

And that concludes my report of the recent visits. While the first visit was rather slow and boring, the other 2 nights really made up for that and those are 2 nights I will remember for a long time. And I truly hope that those experiences have helped me to enable my inner slut more often. At least that is what I try to work on for now, so that I can have more of these experiences in the future. Thank you all for reading, and I am happy to answer any questions in the comments if you have any.

I have always been a sexual person ever since I started to become a sissy. Probably even before that, but becoming a sissy has been the thing that has allowed me to truly tap into my own sexuality and start to become slowly accustomed to my own desires and wishes and to live out that part of me that for most parts has lied dormant before I started dressing up.

That even showed early on as only 6 months after dressing up for the first time I visited my first swinger club event and even though it took another 6 months before I lost my sissy virginity going out to swinger clubs and sex parties has just been an important part to me. Not just for the sex, but also as those are safe spaces to just be yourself and get to know people. I even met a lot of great people through those events who I can call friend. Eventually I also started to visit other locations such as porn cinemas/adult arcades or gay saunas and I even started to organize my own swinger parties with my bestie with a queer and trans focus.

However, even though I have already experienced a lot and always have been sexually quite active as a sissy I always felt like I was still holding myself back. My inner slut was still on a leash and I was afraid to let her loose and to truly give into my deepest desires. Because I still have the desire to still be acknowledged as a human being and not just the fuckdoll or the object outside of dedicated play time. Being valued and respected is still important to me and I want to feel desired for the person I am, not just because I just happen to be available. Also I was still a bit ashamed of my own desires.

All of that has changed in the last weeks though. I don't know what exactly has changed, but I started to let her loose. Like completely - no breaks, all gas. I started to stand by my own desires and be proud of them and I have learned that being a slut does not make me a lesser person. In fact it is empowering and it takes confidence and strength to be that kind of girl, because ultimately its owning your own sexuality, while still setting boundaries and enforcing them.

I started to develop methods how to lose my inhibitions but in a sane and safe way, especially mentally and basically wrote myself a 3 pages long playbook (If there is enough interest I can translate and share what I have collected). And this eventually resulted in me visiting an adult arcade in my area that I have never been before 3 times in the last 7 days and experienced the two most intense and fulfilling nights I ever had since starting to go out (I'll probably write an own post about those nights, as they were truly wild).

I know that a lot of you might hesitate to let loose and to give into your desired and I totally get it and I am still in the process of truly figuring things out, but if there is one thing I have learned not only with those recent events, but also generally, then its that the best experiences will require some bravery. So take that leap in the dark and just do it. Don't leave caution behind completely, obviously, but also don't let fear stun you. Yes its scary to give in, but most of the time the rewards are higher than the risks.

I truly hope that my experiences might inspire some of you to take the next step, because in the end everyone deserves to live their life in a way that they truly want, even though it might take some courage and bravery at times to do so.

I have always been a sexual person ever since I started to become a sissy. Probably even before that, but becoming a sissy has been the thing that has allowed me to truly tap into my own sexuality and start to become slowly accustomed to my own desires and wishes and to live out that part of me that for most parts has lied dormant before I started dressing up.

That even showed early on as only 6 months after dressing up for the first time I visited my first swinger club event and even though it took another 6 months before I lost my sissy virginity going out to swinger clubs and sex parties has just been an important part to me. Not just for the sex, but also as those are safe spaces to just be yourself and get to know people. I even met a lot of great people through those events who I can call friend. Eventually I also started to visit other locations such as porn cinemas/adult arcades or gay saunas and I even started to organize my own swinger parties with my bestie with a queer and trans focus.

However, even though I have already experienced a lot and always have been sexually quite active as a sissy I always felt like I was still holding myself back. My inner slut was still on a leash and I was afraid to let her loose and to truly give into my deepest desires. Because I still have the desire to still be acknowledged as a human being and not just the fuckdoll or the object outside of dedicated play time. Being valued and respected is still important to me and I want to feel desired for the person I am, not just because I just happen to be available. Also I was still a bit ashamed of my own desires.

All of that has changed in the last weeks though. I don't know what exactly has changed, but I started to let her loose. Like completely - no breaks, all gas. I started to stand by my own desires and be proud of them and I have learned that being a slut does not make me a lesser person. In fact it is empowering and it takes confidence and strength to be that kind of girl, because ultimately its owning your own sexuality, while still setting boundaries and enforcing them.

I started to develop methods how to lose my inhibitions but in a sane and safe way, especially mentally and basically wrote myself a 3 pages long playbook (If there is enough interest I can translate and share what I have collected). And this eventually resulted in me visiting an adult arcade in my area that I have never been before 3 times in the last 7 days and experienced the two most intense and fulfilling nights I ever had since starting to go out (I'll probably write an own post about those nights, as they were truly wild).

I know that a lot of you might hesitate to let loose and to give into your desired and I totally get it and I am still in the process of truly figuring things out, but if there is one thing I have learned not only with those recent events, but also generally, then its that the best experiences will require some bravery. So take that leap in the dark and just do it. Don't leave caution behind completely, obviously, but also don't let fear stun you. Yes its scary to give in, but most of the time the rewards are higher than the risks.

I truly hope that my experiences might inspire some of you to take the next step, because in the end everyone deserves to live their life in a way that they truly want, even though it might take some courage and bravery at times to do so.