My (f43) daughter (f20) kissed me when she was drunk
This happened a couple of weeks ago and I've not told anyone about it. It's driving me up the wall keeping it in.
Essentially I went to pick up my daughter after she'd been out day drinking at the pub. She was very drunk but also very high energy so I suspect she wasn't just drinking. On the way home she kept raving on about how I was a great mother and how much she loves and appreciates me.
Then when we got in the house she immediately pulls me in for a big embrace and repeats how much she loves me and then sniffs my hair and neck and tells me that I smell amazing. She then pulls away slightly and thanks me again for the lift, taking my face in both her hands she plants a big smooch on my lips.
My immediate maternal instinct was to recoil away from the kiss as I was very confused and thought it was inappropriate, especially with me being stoned cold sober. She didn't look too hurt that I pulled away, I think largely because she was so drunk/high. She went off to bed, giving me a platonic kiss on the cheek.
I stayed up all night thinking about the kiss she'd gone for and what it meant. I'm almost certain it was more than a platonic kiss that she was going for and I wonder what she wanted from it if I'd given in to a more passionate kiss. I wouldn't say I'm bisexual but I'm certainly bi curious and have kissed other women before but not in about 20 years or so.
The kiss definitely stirred something inside me. I feel disgusted with myself but to be completely honest part of me does wonder what could have happened if I had let it. It doesn't help that she doesn't seem to remember it at all so I don't want to discuss it with her for fear of it negatively affecting our relationship.
I think I made the right call in the end but the wrong feeling of the idea of incest stirred something in me and the more shame I feel from it the more it excites me