u/OtherSideOfMe09

I wanted to have a boudoir photoshoot wearing sexy lingerie sa isang magandang motel like Victoria Court. I want solo photos of me taken by the bed, the mirror, and bath tub or jacuzzi. I wanted the photos to look seductive although I am a bit chubby so I am counting on the artistic side of the photographer.

I also wanted the photographer to capture photos of me being in doggy position, me kneeling when giving a head, and me on top of as a grind while my breasts are bouncing up and down. I wanted the photos to turn out natural, in such a way that the sex looks passionate.

While I fantasize this to be done with me and my husband, I want the photographer to be skilled enough with editing to conceal our faces and identifiable marks as I want those photos to be set as our phone and computer’s wallpaper and screensaver.

This is an update from my previous posts for people asking me how’s my married life.

My husband is naturally a responsible person as he came from a broken family, at panganay din siya. Maaasahan sa gawaing bahay at maasikaso sakin.

Nung nagka-kilala kami, I was just a plain and ordinary girl. He never asked me to change but as our relationship progressed, dun ako simulang mag-ayos ng sarili in terms of pananamit at ugali. Dati kasi kuntento na ako sa hand-me-downs and may pagka-maldita din ako noon sa mga ex ko.

Through my husband, I learned how to take care of myself. I could say that he came into my life at the right time kasi matured na ko to handle a relationship.

When we got married, that is when the intimacy has decreased, dahil na rin siguro we've started to be real adults, we both gained weight, and we also had to go through difficult problems financially.

The journey that I had from college to marriage is something that my husband doesn't know. It's not that I intentionally kept it as a secret, pero hindi naman niya kasi tinanong, at ang weird naman kung proactive kong iku-kwento, baka maging dahilan pa ng tampuhan. What he only knows is that I had boyfriends and experiences before I met him, but it is not as detailed as my previous post.

As I reflect on the story that I shared with y'all, nakita ko na may kakulangan din siguro ako bilang misis. I realized that I have been waiting for him to do the first move, when I know for a fact that I am more experienced in this context.

It was a bit bothersome at first assuming that the weight of improving our intimacy is in my shoulders dahil ako yung babae, pero natutunan ko na rin tanggapin na meron din akong kailangan i-improve pa kasi asawa ko naman na siya at ako yung mas nakakaunawa.

We are happy. I am well taken care of, and ganun din ako sa kanya. Having him improve in bed through communication something that I am working on.

Thanks for reading!

As I scroll through this sub out of boredom, I saw some of you sharing their “body count” so I thought I’d do the same. I am an introvert, hindi mabarkada, conservative ang mga parents and hindi pala-gimik so konti lang talaga ang experience.

[J] 1st year college: I had a boyfriend who taught me what “Base 1, 2, and 3” meant. Although we’re both 18 na at this time, di pa rin kami nag attempt mag check-in kasi mukha pa talaga kaming bata. So, what we did is after ng class namin sa hapon, pupunta kami sa bahay kasi walang tao. Dahil takot parehas sa teenage pregnancy, his base three attempt was just to rub his hard dick above my undies. Never kong nakita yung titi niya kasi hindi naman niya nilabas at hindi ko din alam gagawin ko by that time HAHAHA saka nag break din kami.

[A] Body count #1: I had a boyfriend na seminarista. 19 years old ako nito. Matangkad, kayumanggi, at matalino. Yung pagiging matalino talaga niya ang naging dahilan kung bakit ko siya sinagot, pero pucha, sa kanya pala mawawala ang V-card ko. Di ko makakalimutan na nung nag check-in kami parehas for the first time, nagka spot na dugo talaga sa bedsheet ng motel. Ito rin ang first time kong makagamit ng condom at mag blowjob and nasaktan siya kasi masarap yung flavor and nakagat ko etits niya HAHAHA sorry po. Mahigit isang dekada na ‘to at may asawa na rin siya sa pagkakaalam ko pero no contact kami sa social media.

[R] Body Count #2: Boyfriend that I had in call center. 22 years old ako nito, siya naman ay 32 years old. Hindi kami team mates, pero nakilala ko siya nung nag side barge siya sakin. I can’t remember na paano naging kami kasi matagal na ‘to. First time kong magka jowa ng half-Filipino (half-Slovenian), tapos telebabad talaga as in hours on the phone pag rest day namin. Tapos may kotse din siya kaya hatid sundo sa office kasi same shift kami. Inosente pa rin ako sa sex nito kaya nung sinasabi niya na nire-respeto daw niya ang auto nya at never daw niyang gagawin mag sex dun, later in life ko na lang naintindihan na “car fun” pala ang ibig sabihin nun 😅 Hindi ko siya makakalimutan as he was my greatest love. He gave me the best foreplay, naka-live in ko na rin siya. I was almost ready to marry him kahit 10 years ang age gap namin, kahit na against ang parents ko sa kanya, but he was seloso, thinking that “makakakilala ka pa ng mas bata sakin” so he eventually broke up with me after less than a year lang.

[P] Body count #3: Had a fling (di ko na consider na boyfriend, kasi di ito alam ng both families) na half Filipino ulit (half American). Siya siguro pinaka malibog sa lahat. Siya ang unang lalaki na nagsabi sakin ng “fantasy” at ang bet nya at this time was threesome. Hindi ko maintindihan noon bakit gusto mong tatlo kayong nagme-makeout/love? Di ba nakakahiya yon? Yun pa naisip ko that time. I had to wait for a decade din para magets bakit may ganyang desires ang tao SORRY NA LATE BLOOMER NGANI

[J A] Body count #4: This is one of my regrets in life - pumasok ako sa rebound setup. This guy, sinabi ko sa kanya na broken pa ako, na di ko sure if this will work out, pero willing daw siya, aalagaan at mamahalin daw ako. He has been true to his word. Pero after 2-3 years into the relationship, I told him na hindi siya ang lalaking nakikita ko maging asawa. Ramdam ko rin na hindi ako genuinely gusto ng sisters at parents niya, so I have broken up with him. Medyo LDR pa yan kasi taga Cavite siya at Quezon City ako that time, pero never tinamad yan bumiyahe for me. Partida, commute pa. As for the sex part, not really satisfied. Wala kaming contact sa social media too. Pinag pray ko siya na sana mapatawad niya ko pero kung hindi, deserve ko naman. Sana mahanap na niya ang true love niya.

Body count #5: Eto na yung napangasawa ko. Read my previous post na lang 😅

Ikaw, what’s your story?

I am my husband’s first and last girlfriend before we got married on our late twenties; while ako may mga naging boyfriends naman before tying the knot, pero konti ang experience when it comes to sex.

Hindi ma-explore ang asawa ko. He only does two positions, laging nagpapa-request sakin ng bj, when I get little to no foreplay, tapos pag nilabasan na siya, wala na. No round 2. So imagine the frustration that I have. Sabi ko, gusto kong ma-improve ang sex life ko. I’ve been giving him ideas of what I wanted, pero sabi niya, di na daw niya kayang tumagal [sa kama]. I told him to see a doctor, but he never took my advise seriously.

Lately, I have been fantasizing to have sex with someone else [either he watch a video of me getting fucked, or threesome with him MMF] para makuha yung pleasure na gusto ko at para matuto siya [yeah, fantasy kasi di ko magawang masabi] dahil sa moral compass na meron kami parehas bilang katoliko at Pilipino.

Bilang babae, kahit na mabait ang asawa ko, I can’t gauge if matutuwa ba siya or magkakaroon ng violent reaction if I opened this up. I was hoping na sana siya na lang ang mag bring up ng idea kasi ang awkward kung galing sakin.

I was having doubts of telling him because what if, he shares this confidential matter sa mga tropa niya to seek advise as well? Who knows, this might be a common knowledge in our circle of friends, at ikasira pa ng image ko. Alam naman nating lahat na ang ganito is hindi widely accepted sa bansa natin.

Aware ako na there should be boundaries set and that emotionally and mentally prepared dapat for this setup should we decide to dive into it.

We are both trentahin pala and does not have any kids (or do not have plans in having one).