Update from my last post (parents sex life)
update from my last post (parents sex life) bc things kinda escalated and i genuinely don’t know how to feel about it anymore.
after that conversation, we kept talking about it sometimes and i got way too emotionally/sexually fixated on the whole thing. Mmg satu hari tu, taktau apa jadi to me, i was extremely horny and bothered, as dia explained and talked i was already rubbing my nipples; and dia dah sedar la sbb my sounds … and he started to guide me into touching myself. it ended up turning into mutual masturbation over the phone, we watched porn together and finished(voice call je, nothing was shown). it happened twice. Days later even when I masturbate, I asyik dgr balik voice messages dia, explain how he eats my mum out and how to touch myself so i can cum harder
i know this sounds insane and i genuinely don’t know what’s wrong with me because part of me feels disgusted, part of me feels weirdly attached to the attention/validation, and another part of me keeps thinking about it constantly. i can’t tell if this is some trauma response, daddy issues, loneliness, curiosity, or if my brain just got wired to associate all the emotional tension with arousal.