Except if you turn to religions wich im notngoing to speak about, life is just nonsense, basically delusional hopes that create frustration, boredom and pain, there is nothing with true value there, no true pleasure, no true love, nothing. Thats why drugs are not dumb to take, life is useless and taking drugs is not bad even if it desyroys your life atleast you would quickly break the cycle of pain and boredom, but after a while even drugs wont feel good anymore. So why would I be sober? Survive? For what? Theres nothing to do sober, no hopes that are realists, hopes are either never going to happen or they will happen and not even feel good, there is no satisfaction in life, so why would I want that basic life with a job and a family? Just taking 'honest' money for superficial things and a family that will cost le much time but be full of hypocrisis, the children seeing the father as a dumbass and the wife cheating on him no this is shit of peoples living on what they believe is "normal" but thats insanity. On drugs im connected to higher reality, to higher entities, and I will not be betrayed by the earth, I am not depressed or insane im justnrealist getting high andnhaving adrenaline rushes is just the point of life
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I cant feel high easily anymore, or at all, I just feel abit dissociated when I take stuff, and except if im about to overdose, im not feeling really high, what to take? (I already did K, H, Benzos, Spice/K2, huffing, Cocaine, Crack) idk honestly I cant feel anything except on very strong psychedelics like DPH but it DOESNT feel good and isnt enjoyable at all
Drugs make me feel lonely af but thinking abt it it makes me hate others and hury them too so maybe I can jusg isolate myself, delete all my socials, go outside only for money and drugs and not speak to nayone? Is it good idea I feel likes its a true peace perfect life
I wany to forget everythinf, no badtrips no euphoria just feel nothing completly numb I dont want to be able to think or to feel I want to get less and less conscious, I hate ketamine makes me scared most of time, im too used to keta, to weed, K2, Benzos, I take Benzos daily and alcohol, I huff too, Heroin is nice but expensive, mdma makes me depressed again I need to get numb I got too high telerance to everythinf I beg give me the perfpect potion that gives me peace