Have you ever experienced a trauma that turned into a turn on or kink?
I know it sounds fucked up but, I read somewhere that it's sometimes your brains reaction to self preserve and heal that a trauma, specifically sexual but sometimes not, can sometimes turn into a kink or a turn on.
I had a girlfriend once who threatened to kill herself when I tried to leave her due to her cheating nature. I ended up calling 911 on her and she got hospitalized for it. She apparently resented me for it and one day I woke up to a video of her getting absolutely railed by another guy as her revenge.
Before this situation every relationship I had was very 1 on 1.
My first reaction was disgust and betrayal, heart break, sadness, the regular stuff you should feel when something like this happens. But after about a month or two I found myself rethinking it over in my head and finding it extremely attractive that she was having sex with another guy other than me.
It surprised me because I had never thought seeing my significant other have sex with another guy was hot before. But I had never seen it before that situation either.
Needless to say, I have an open relationship policy now for any relationship I am in or will be in in the future, where as long as it's communicated and she is safe about it and I am as well, she can fuck whoever she wants to and I can as well. If she doesn't want that, we can be strictly closed to just each other. But I would like to see her get fucked and join in if she wanted me to.
Something my mind never would have fathomed prior to this is now a big turn on for me.
Normal reaction to a traumatic event?
Also I feel like it isn't as much of a cuck fetish as it is wanting a hot wife and open relationship or swinging kink 😅 none of the degradation, reclaiming her bullshit.