Nostalgia trip
11 yrs ago, I had a bf who's 16 and i am 14. Isang patagong relasyon but some of my cousins and nephews/nieces knew about it. We were LDR since i am studying away from home, parang more than half of our relationship was texting, calls, and quite few rated scenes when we meet up.
When im 15, a lot had happened in school. Ito yung typical classroom scenario na may magkakagusto sa iyo tapos ikaw pala may jowa na, the boy knew it but still pursued and the class really know how to tease the both of us. I told my bf that time, he was saying okay but also telling me na baka gusto ko rin yung guy. At the back of my mind, bakit nya yun nasabi?
The guy really exerts effort, he was a soccer player and team-played well with my cousin. He still continued to text, tease and i think court even though alam nya na i do have a bf but it came to the point that i need to bluntly tell him to stop. He still continued but was lesser engaging hanggang kamustahan nlng. Months after nun, me and my bf broke up. I never knew he cheated but later on I realized, I was cheated because of the overlapping relationship he had with his current that time with me.
Before college, the guy left the country and since I am single, I was also free. We continued to chat after he knew me and my bf had broken up. He started to tease again and asked me how am i. He shared that he'll be home for a month and will probably meet together with our mutual friends. The guy never told me when but his close friends knew. There's an instance wherein we met his friends at our high school and one of his friends gave me a paperbag full of chocos and a pair of shoe (which i jokingly asked for as a pasalubong), they told me he was not able to come home but pinadala na lang daw (di ako naniwala since mahilig mangtrip mga barakada nya). When we were going out of the school, i knew it, he is standing waiting for us to come out. We had lunch that day with our mutuals and i know they continued to tease us but really, there's nothing special I thought about him.
After that summer he came back, my ex reached out to me after how many attempts i made to text him. He also told me they broke up and asked me to hangout with him.. i know it was bad but really, I just miss him that moment and we never got a chance for a closure too, that's why i did.
Both my ex and the guy casually txt/chats me and slowly i cut ties with my ex because i heard he got a gf, (may tendency na two timer sya eh). And slowly fading din ang relationship ko kay guy. The guy is working while I am in college juggling extra co and academics. So when he's asking how my day went, i find him the guy that listens. Nag vevent out ako sa kanya and vice versa. But with all those interactions, it came to a point wherein i saw his 'superiority'. I was disappointed with him and little did i know, it was the start of our relationship going to a blur.
Years passed, i never dated anyone after those guys, I was busy at uni and i have a lot on my plate. I do have crushes, I party sometimes but hanggang doon na lang. no labels at all.
Before i am graduating, the guy with his fiance na pinay rin came home dto sa pinas para magpakasal and honeymoon na rin. It was relayed and i confirmed that he unfriended me pala sa blue app, not just me but also yung classmate namin na close to all of our batchmates, (this is a girl na knows how to have a relationship sa mga batchmates namin, so i thought fiance nya naghahandle ng acct- just an assumption). With my ex also, he got a child now, i also know his wife..
so literally, they both live happily and im still here, figuring things/stuffs and also adulting
I attended a seminar last March, may nakilala at ako pa mismong unang nagchat thru messenger nya, eh yun pala, sya rin ata naghahanap, pero nakakapagod makipag usap sa kanya, walang thrill, or baka iba lng ang hanap ko?
Yung feeling na gsto magka jowa pero napapagod agad sa getting to know each other phase kasi ang boring na... hahahaha, idk what to feel or is it due the constant me time? Sanay nga ba akong mag isa kasi hawak ko oras ko, walang sagabal..
Sorry for this long read but hit me up whenever you feel like it! Hahaha, i'll try to be accommodating as much