So today I tried fingering my butt after like 2 years and I didn't feel anything, like it didn't hurt but I also didn't felt good either. What should I do to reach sissygasm.
Is there are any specific points where i have to touch or should I reach deeper.
So i am kinda new to being a sissy and i have been talked to multiple people online(sexating) for a while now. I have wore my moms panty once(it was so soft and i felt so good in it). Also this all thing was never because of porn or any sissy hypno, since i was like 12 i just wanted to dress like a women its only that my urges have increased since i have started reddit. I used to finger my butt when i was 16 or so then stopped thought it was gross. But now whenever i masterbate after that while in post nut clarity phase i always think that whatever i am doing will ruin my life and carrier. I have big dreams of leaving the country i am living in and travel around the world and i don't know what affects will me being a sissy have in my day to day life. Should i really give in? Or try to get away from all this.
Ik i am at a wrong place for asking this type of question, you guys will be thinking that i should goo to some community where they help getting rid of these, But i wanna know what life style changes you guys had when you became a sissy even you are a secret sissy?