u/Real_Code_2105

Going through this weird crisis right now and I just need to let it out. Basically I'm someone who seeks validation through sex and also a person sexualizing me. But it has made me do certain things i kind of regret right now. I have fucked two guys from work and that seemed to be enough for people to make a big deal out of it. I'm a quiet and shy woman by nature so i guess that's why people find it extra entertaining.

One of them was this much older guy who basically tried to seduce me by touching me without consent and making sexual comments towards me. I was 22 at the time. I couldn't help it, one day he touched me right in between my legs from the back and I suddenly got wet from it. I then took his offer of going to his house and it all went from there. Him being much older is part of this embarrassment that I feel right now but when I think of the experience again, I still sexualize it.

I've been fucking this other guy from there. It recently ended but the damage is still done. I know people at work probably see me as an easy slut but I never thought about it much and just did what I enjoyed in the moment. The second guy also admitted how apart from seeing me sad at work and seeing himself in me when he first met me, he would also imagine what I look like naked. By now I accepted that I mostly attract the guys who like closed off, vulnerable women.

There was also the time where I rode my bicycle to work in mini skirts last summer. The risk of being exposed and how slutty it made me look turned me on. I look back at it now and think what the hell was I thinking. I know my frontal lobe is fully developed now but thinking about the things I would do still gets me off. I really put myself on the spot as someone who never took judgement well and didn't think it through well enough. Now it has started to hit me.

I can't keep it inside and felt the urge to post it online but not to people with good intentions. But to people who are going to sexualize it and get off on me being vulnerable and seeking validation. Idk if this is the right place for it but I genuinely get off also on exposing myself like this. I guess it's a coping mechanism.

I met up with my friend with benefits yesterday again at my house. When we were in my bed, we thought we would just cuddle and we did for a while and also talked. But we eventually both became very horny and started making out. He was fingering my pussy and sucking on my boobs while I was jerking his cock. He was fingering me so good that I started eagerly moaning while holding my lace, see-through panties to the side with my other hand. He was touching me directly on my clit making me squirm and move around in his arms.

He had me suck on his cock, holding my hair in place, thrusting it in and out of my mouth as I looked up at his face. I started touching my pussy again but then begged him to do it for me again instead. Soon after he put his dick into my pussy, fucking me in missionary deep and hard. I kept moaning and yelling like crazy. After some time he said he wants to put it in my ass and I was already hoping that he would want to. He wanted to fuck me from the back so he positioned me in doggy style. He put his tongue on my asshole, licking it and sticking his tongue inside it like a good boy.

Then he put lube onto it and slowly started pushing inside. It didn't take long before my ass eased up and he was fucking me firmly into my asshole. At one point I started thrusting back onto his dick because it just felt so good. He also was rubbing my pussy from the back while pounding my ass. I wanted to cum so bad but I need to rub my pussy to cum. I laid on my back as he was getting more lube. I was watching him from my bed while touching myself and begging him to fuck me more. I started saying his name also which got him harder again. I was amazed at myself because I didn't enjoy anal much in the past but here I was begging someone to keep fucking my ass.

He lubed up my ass some more and started pushing his dick inside again. I was rubbing my pussy during it but also stopping to just let him fuck it deep. I was moaning like crazy, yelling "fuck me!" and asking him if he likes fucking my little ass. I eventually came so hard when I started rubbing myself again. He kept fucking me and then he asked if he can cum into my ass. I was telling him to do it as he was fucking me hard until he came deep inside my asshole.

Afterwards we were both exhausted but also both agreed that it was the best experience ever.

Hope you enjoy!