Observations lately
So I have noticed a few things lately that I would like to share and get some feedback. First of all, I always thought that you never had to question if your shit was good or bad due to the immediate intensity of the high. I also use the physical ques, horniness and dilated pupils as evidence of the quality of product or high. I've been a smoker on and off for many years and recently relapsed.
I assume that there are folks associated with the crew I have crossed paths with to obtain and partake in the smoking scene I have access to are on this subreddit, and once I acknowledge what I have to say will know exactly who I am IRL.
My first issue is with the pupils. My pupils never dilate. The people around me have visibly dilated pupils, some so much so they seem to be with color, just giant soft black orbs signifying the intense euphoria I knew in the past.
See, I believe when I've given up $$ I will receive a high that doesn't require questioning, that's the nature of the transaction. $$=high. Anything beyond that is blatant bullshit nobody has time for. Why would I risk my freedom for a mediocre buzz?
With that said, I understand that things have changed, since I first started twenty years ago. But a good quality high, signified by what I see in the mirror. I see me, feel lacking in my euphoria, and notice the people who are obviously not lacking. I'm frustrated and believe there's something to all of this, if only a solution.
I'm not crazy, I'm not stupid, and I'm not really fukkin high either, sad to say. Maybe putting this out there will influence changes to that. 🤲