Had a bing over a week ago… meth, coke, crack, weed… I can’t stop sleeping. Why is this? I bet if I drug tested the stims would be out of my system but I still can’t stop sleeping. I imagine staying up for days on end high has something to do with it but how do I start sleeping less 😂
Thanks you im having a good laugh now while eating a pizza after going about a week. First time ever buying something other than coke…made the mistake of redosing thinking it was like coke… won’t ever make that mistake again cause meth is too strong like 90% alcohol strong.
Y’all got me freaked out tho for a second till I calmed down after a day and realized it was dirty laundry and work shoes making the smell I was convinced was me.
So going through a lot personally… went to jail, lost my wife & kid, did coke before jail on probation which is why I got in trouble in the first place… got out of jail for a VOP and wanted to get high. Probation hasn’t drug tested me yet so been lucky so far. Gotta quit while im ahead. Not making excuses I am a man and this type of shit needs to be nipped in the bud. Im going through a lot tho and im an addict in a state far away from my family…
Anyways I didn’t have coke money anymore cause im not splitting bills so I would do a .1 of meth a couple times from this dud at work and get energetic and focused. COOL. I thought, im getting the benefits im wanting off coke at work at a fraction of the cost. Is this all meth is? It’s not so bad after trying it for the first couple times.
Stimfapping, gooning was off the max. Would hook up with women and be a lame duck in bed. I wanted so badly to perform but couldn’t get it up and would jerk it to get hard and sweat profusely around a girl that’s going WTF. Not my brightest moment. Then I was like give me an 8ball so I don’t have to constantly buy off you and he did.
Man dude the last 3-4, possibly 5 days have been a blur because I’ve slept probably 15 hours. I was seeing the shadow people and got the auditory hallucinations. Heard the voices around my home. Stuff moving around the corner of my eye. Deep cleaned my job like a true tweaked. Can’t believe i even drove myself home safely on this stuff seeing a shadow person and getting closer to realizing it was a pothole and swerving a little going 5 under the speed limit.
Obviously not the best time im having in life right now and I used for the last time this morning at 5am, it’s currently 6:30pm and im giving the rest of the 8ball back to the dude I bought it from. It was not for me.
I did like the weight loss aspect, I definitely lost 10lbs from not eating or drinking much. I did like how confident you became and carefree about your problems, it was nice to escape your head even if it was temporary. I however did not care for endlessly stimfapping and gooning and inviting women over and being a very selfish lover, lol. Nor will I miss the paranoia at the end where I thought everyone knows im tweaked out, or felt like I smelled bad and my breathe smells despite constantly brushing, mouthwash & showering. Sometimes would feel like I’d hallucinate parts of conversation I’d have with coworkers towards the end which was scary because that’s happening in real time in the real world. Also I didn’t like how dry it made your mouth and currently have to get a filling repaired on Monday cause the dry mouth caused a faulty filling to come out my tooth so 5 days in and I have a meth mouth.
Obviously you can tell by my grammar my brain is fogged up and im not coherent right now. I feel the paranoia and just want to shut in all day. Never doing this drug again as I feel this is my rock bottom and wanted to let it out with people that have gone through the same things.
Do you guys have any experiences you can relate to mine? Also is what im saying about the conversations make sense?
I knew meth was sketch and that’s why I avoided it for so long so I knew what I was getting into so im not surprised with the results that have happened from using just want some advice as to how to recover.
Thanks for reading.