Iam 27 i live in Hyderabad, I work night shift, upto 4am I used to just sleep mostly, from 7 months I've been going for walks at 4 am, in a nearby university. I used to walk mind my own business most of the time one fine day I saw this beautiful woman I saw her didn't think of her much I continued, days passed our timings were the same, it started with just normal basic seeing eachother and acknowledging smiling waving eachother. It continued for a few weeks one day we talk , just normal conversation I get to know she is a housewife no kids she is 36, it was normal for most days odd day we would talk and just move on, then we take a break she saw me using Instagram we exchanged socials, hey hi forwarding memes all of that, and we started talking.
One day I asked her why you guys didn't have kids
She says we wanted to be child free all of that.
I say I thought you might be in a troubled marriage or something
She says little trouble but it's okay
We talk for a bit she asks me about my life
I never had a girlfriend but I lied and said I had one we broke up I made up a fake story
She was like you are so cute who would leave you.
Topic jumps to virginity I say iam a virgin
Then we talked about bunch of stuff
she replied what do you think about me,
I reply you are cool beautiful all of that,
she smiles and asks me are you interested?
I said in what , she says in me.
I said yes and we dive deep into our convo
Next morning we met we laughed and
We talked about he body then a few days later she said do you want to watch something? I said what
We get into her car she flashes me
Then it started we kissed
From then to this day we occasionally make out oral only
Three days back she told me to book a room or she is fine with my place
Now iam confused if I want to continue or not iam in a dilemma
I don't want to lose my virginity to married woman
What if i meet someone special
I'm confused at.