I love my girlfriend we are 31M and 33F, but every day I find my feelings contradicting with loving and caring her so much but being so strongly attracted to other women. And I can't help it.
Last week, a co-worker and I were alone in a meeting room, she was wearing all sports clothing for going to the gym later. White sneakers, white Nike socks over green tight panties, a grey sweater on top, her blonde curly hair tied on a ponytail.
I knew she was sporting a massive rack behind that baggy sweater. All I could think of was grabbing that pony tail and ramming my cock all down her throat while gushing saliva and cum down her massive breasts.
She noticed I was getting hard. Looked down, looked at me and smirked. We kept talking as if nothing was happening for 15 minutes. We already went through the topics but the meeting room was booked for another 10 minutes.
She looked at the clock, smiled at me and went directly under the table. Unzipped my jeans and got my hard cock all out. She started licking from the base of my penis all up to the glans, and immediately got it all inside her mouth in one go.
I was looking at the clock so desperate that the meeting was going to be over and somebody would knock on the door.
She sensed my desperation and grabbed my balls while pushing hard on them to get it all in her mouth. Once she got a good hold of my cock, she started swirling her tongue all around it frantically.
She moaned softly and I could not hold it. I tapped her softly in the head to get her out but she grabbed my hands and sucked even deeper. All my cum, all the semen I was holding for weeks that my girlfriend did not want, went all down directly to her esophagus.
She swallowed it all without a hiccup. Got out of the table. Kissed me with a passion I have long forgotten. And left the room without saying anything.
1 minute left. I straightened myself and got out in the most casual way I could.
Immediately after I get to my desk. Another meeting popped for the same time next week.
I feel as a monster, but at the same time, it made me feel so alive.
What should I do?