u/SKDI_0224

So I installed grindr. Because I get horny. And this guy i used to hook up with texts me. He is VERY good at what he does. Primal play, cnc, anal, piss play. He is so damn good. He has a dick that hits the spots inside that just make my tongue roll out and my jaw go slack.

Unfortunately I had to turn him down. Im not up to that quite yet. When asked why, I showed him a photo. He STILL expressed interest. I needed that. I needed to feel desired.

Maybe he will text again when the doctor clears me.

I had hooked up before top surgery. And I had to stop because of the top dysphoria. Now I'm getting twitchy waiting.

I had a few times I'd have a guy play hide and seek in the park. Then he would pin me down, pull my pants down, and fuck me. It was so good to feel weak. To be dominated. I am not small. I am not weak. I know this. But being made to submit to someone bigger and stronger felt so damn good.

I have to wait until I'm cleared for the gym at the least. I can be a good boy. For now.