Panic attacks and facing reality
I've been on Suboxone almost two weeks and have started having anxiety attacks every night. I stopped taking clonidine because I was afraid it would kill me if I took both the same day.
My anxiety was so bad I ended up calling 911 the other night because my heartrate was so high and I started sweating.
I felt like something really bad was happening to me.
I had a appointment with my Doctor today and he said I could go ahead and take the clonidine if my anxiety gets bad.
I'm still nervous though. With my parents dying there is no other family around for my kids. They are grown, but still need me.
I've been on opioids for many years. Maybe the stress is catching up with me now that I'm off of them and facing reality.
It's all just too much for me right now. I am proud that I haven't used anything else since I started taking Suboxone.
I've started having some cravings, but I know I cannot go back to doing that stuff again. I can't afford it. I need therapy.
I'm supposed to meet with a therapist tomorrow through the Suboxone clinic. I'm hoping that might help.
My house is a mess and I look terrible. I realize I've barely been functioning this past year. I've lost 50 pounds and none of my clothes fit me. I started losing my hair from the 7oh I was taking. Now that I'm thinking more clearer I see what I've become. I'm not happy with this at all and I'm overwhelmed.
I know this is long and I'm rambling on and on, but just needed to talk to someone and get this off my chest.
I hope everyone is doing okay. Any advice is well appreciated.