u/Sad_Property1785

Ok so I have ADHD and I have been prescribed ritalin like a year ago and I got heavilly addicted (like that was how I imagine hell) 2 months ago the script got cancelled, I kinda went into a psychosis for some time, and started having theese extremly feindish momenths when on random tuesday evening I sent my plug hundreds of dollars for 7 different drugs, that half of them I never tried, and used it for the next few days. Then I was reading od reddit about a woman who was heavilly addicted to ritalin and got her life saved by changing to dexendrin, which somehow isnt nearly as addictive as ritalin for her. In my country there isnt any amph ADHD medication, so I said I would try speed, and well it worked. The urges to redose, or take too much, or take it too late, or snort it are almost non existing compared to ritalin, and it acctually makes me a functional part of the society. So I really want things to stay this way but I also preffer stims on festivals and in clubs, and I dont have anything different to do. So will I be able to take higher dose by different ROA like once a month and still keep taking the speed caps as I should? And if I would need the dose, for example for studying, to hit instantlly can I snort it or is the risk of addiction raising too much? Any experience or comment helps.