How things have changed. Probably going through a massive purge :(
I really have no one else to talk to about this so am posting this here...
Getting straight to the point, this lifestyle has cost me almost everything. I've always had a side of me that was interested in this, and roughly 3-4 years ago I got hooked on illicit substances which I think pushed me more towards living out life as a sissy and in feminine form. I went pretty deep down this rabbit hole embracing herbal estrogen supplements, breast pumping to get fuller, more feminine breasts, laser hair removal, etc...Looking back at it all, it's actually kind of " scary " when I think about how successful I was at pulling off a feminine appearance.
While I'd be lying if I said part of me didn't enjoy it, living life that way nearly cost me everything ranging from my career to the love of a good woman.
Fortunately I recognized I was on a bad path with some of the things I was doing, stopped, and was able to salvage ( I think ) my career, but along the way have lost a lot of friends and the love of a good woman which has pretty much prompted me to drop the lifestyle and get rid of ( or just put in storage ) a lot of the clothes and other things I've accumulated.
It was fun, but it came at a great cost.
Other reasons also include the fact that I am older now and live alone and if something were to happen to me I wouldn't want my relatives to come in and have to clean out bedroom/house full of feminine stuff and sex toys.
Thats all..not suicidal or anything like that..just having a rude awakening about a part of this lifestyle that probably isn't talked about much.