I just need to take it slowly
Hello everyone,
I’m a 30 years old guy from France, and I’ve been reading the posts here for several months now to find out about all your different experiences.
I finally feel ready to post something here.
I wanted to talk about my experiences, but above all about my current situation.
First of all, I’ve been into this fetish since I was 14 or 15 and I’ve grown up with it. Back then, I decided to tell my first love about my preferences and, to my great surprise, she was not into this kink but she accepted it very well and we started experimenting with certain things that became the foundations of my sexuality. We were together for 11 years and split up three years ago. So I haven’t done anything about it for three years.
I’ve recently started seeing a woman and everything’s going really well. I think she quickly realised that I was very interested in her ‘little hole’. She told me several times that I’d never be allowed to put a finger in it or lick it. I was really sad, because I think I’ve fallen seriously in love with her. She sensed straight away that something was wrong with me from that moment on.
I wanted to be honest with her about my preferences, so I decided to talk to her about it. I was so scared of telling her that my heart was beating so hard and so fast that she noticed. When I finally had the courage to say it, She was a bit choked, but clearly not enough to break up with me.
We talked about it, but we quickly stopped because it was too much for her.
Since then, I’ve fingered her and licked her bum countless times 🤣 She explained to me that she didn’t want me to go near that area because she was afraid of what might come out of it. But as she now knows I love these ‘happy accidents’, she’s relaxed a bit. She admitted it was a very sensitive area that she often stimulated on her own. So she really loves it when I lick her there.
But damn, I want her to shit on me sooo bad. I told her so, but she replied that it went way beyond what she was prepared to do. It really upsets me because this fetish is now part of who I am sexually. For me, it’s the ultimate sign of trust a girl can place in me.
I don’t want to force her to do anything that makes her feel uncomfortable, but I’d just like her to understand that this isn’t a bonus for me – it’s an essential part of my sexual fulfilment. I enjoy conventional sex and I don’t want to limit myself solely to activities related to this fetish. But I can’t pretend it doesn’t exist.
I don’t want to get my hopes up, nor do I want to miss out on a wonderful relationship with her. I’m a bit lost, I must admit. I think I just need to take it slowly, not be in such a rush, and let things happen naturally. What do you think?
In any case, I’d love to post here from time to time in the future, just to keep you up to date with how things are going!
I’m really happy to be able to talk about all this here, where I know I won’t be judged or misunderstood! Thank you for making this community a safe space for those of us who are sometimes seen as problematic by the rest of the world.
Thank you for reading this far – have a lovely day!