what were your bad trips like?
shamans used to treat bad trips as encounter with some negative emotion or trauma. But they still continued to engage in sessions afterwards. I think they usually start with low dose and progress to more higher doses if i am correct. So i am wondering does taking shrooms even after bad trips clear away the trauma?
I am new to psychs. I have been seeing a lot of youtube comments, reddit and other posts where people had the best trip of their life and their depression have magically gone away. And there are people who have been preaching psychedelics like duncan trussell who have been depressed and hasn't found a solution.
I didn't know what thisb grateful dead song meant while i listened to it. I got the vibe that it was about surviving. Is this a good song to listen to while tripping. Or can it increase the feeling of dying?
I have been working in IT for a long time. I don't have any friends or close relatives. I always try to stay away from the spotlight. Iam wondering if it might be bad idea for trying shrooms for someone like me?
I found some guy who is experienced with shrooms and lsd. He seems caring and helping people more than iam but i haven't met this guy offline yet. I am wondering if i should meet with this guy for trying shrooms for the first time or take the shrooms alone?
A while ago, i made post on another sub asking something about shrooms. This guy dmed and asked if i want a free acid blot. He added me to his group of around 60 people. I was very skeptical. I exited the group saying i can't trust a stranger. He said its my loss. After a few days, i was very desperate so i asked him if he could send me some mushrooms instead of lsd so that way i can atleast know its mushrooms. He said okay and send the package. but when i received it, it was just the lsd blot. There was no mushrooms in it. he said he couldn't send mushrooms because it got out of stock.
BTW he was posting pics of mushrooms, lsd with his reddit name tag all the time. I think he was truly selling them to the people in the group then. so i asked him why he was insisting on sending me free acid blot. He said he wanted to build trust and after this, i could pay for more.
I was desperate and stupid. so i took it knowing all the risks involved. Dont want to say otherwise, but i had a bad trip. It was like madness. It was like going on a rollercoaster but you couldn't feel much. I have only done taste test on the lsd, it was tasteless and odourless. I didn't have any tools to test it fully. do you think taste test is reliable to test lsd?
Sorry for the bad english.
just curious how many coders are in this sub. does shrooms improve your coding ability or not?
How did you stop? i have been taking escitalopram for just 6 months. I tapered my dose from 10mg to 5mg last few weeks. People said its only 6 months, you will be fine and you can stop quickly. After tapering to 5mg, it was going great. after two weeks, i started feeling more lethargic, balance issues, slight headaches once a day. Its not that bad, but i still experience this out of normal. I want you to tell me how did you manage to stop ssris completely? Did psychs help you with the withdrawals? how do you take psychs when you are ssri without stopping it?
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I did 200ug lsd from my home. It was 6 months ago. I still feel unmotivated, no meaning in life, etc. i can't enjoy anything it seems. Its like i want to do things, coding, etc but all tasks are difficult for me.
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Just wondering if there are any Indians in here. How do you get your psychs?
I need your explanation on this. The only thing I want to do in this life is to program or code and be better at it. For me, it is power to be able to code and build anything.
After doing my first lsd, i can't sit infront of a pc. It bores me and I can't sustain my attention. I now find travelling, being in cities, being around other people, etc. it's not that i like travelling now and hate programming. I still love coding. But i can't work on tasks that involve thinking long.
So i took 200ug lsd and I resisted the trip i think. Idk if it was a bad or good trip but the events happend outside was traumatic. The events were My family knowing abt it, i asking them to take me to hospital, etc.
Anyway, after the trip i still want to program or code. And i still know how to code like before. But my mind doesn't allow me to sit still infront of a pc and think. Also I am restless when sitting alone for long. After the trip, I am feeling more lonely and restless
I need your honest explanation and help on why this is happening. I am currently undergoing ketamine therapy and it seems to help with depression
EDIT: A thing to know about me. I am introverted and lack any meaningful social connections whatsoever from a young age.
Also Watching movies is another thing i can't do.
One or two days after travelling to a new place, sight seeing, etc. basically after long travel for more than a day. How did the trip go? Did it affect your trips?
What are some of your favourite activities that you started enjoy after doing psychs ? For me, i think I started loving walking, traveling, playing team sports. What else?
I recently came upon Ramana maharishi. He is different from most other gurus because he had an ego death when he was 16 and since then he had abandoned all material possessions. He wasn't well versed in any scriptures. He looks like a true guru.
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This is what Ramana maharishi said about realization:
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One of his most famous statements was that there are only two paths:
Ask "Who am I?"
Completely surrender to God.
He often said these end in the same place.
His logic was:
In Self-Inquiry, the ego disappears by investigation.
In surrender, the ego disappears by giving itself to God.
Either way, the ego loses its central position.
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So does this mean religions have been right all along? Do you think surrendering oneself to God dissolve the ego? If not why?
One thing that i understood way after having my bad trip with my first lsd trip was that you need to be in a good state and non clingy before trying it. They used to avoid eating meat, alcohol etc for this reason.
I have only done psychedelics once (lsd 200ug). After the trip, it felt like a "veil" have removed and I could see and feel something. But also i felt like i don't have a choice after the trip is over. It feels like i can't live like normal humans who haven't seen beyond the veil. Like you have to live in a strict one way, you are controlled by something bigger than you, you don't have the choice to do what you want etc.
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Now in islam, there is the concepts of "veils" Allah has created inorder to protect humans. There is a veil between Allah and the worshipper.
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There is also a famous hadith:
"His veil is light (or fire). If He were to remove it, the splendors of His Face would burn everything His sight reaches."
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Most of the earliest animist beliefs were caused by psychedelic usage. But iam wondering what if you are not supposed to ask spirits for help or try to foresee future? What if the purpose of creation is to fully live in the moment and enjoy instead of trying to reach a certain place?
Those who have done porn and masturbation a week before or days before their mushroom trip, did you have any difference in your trip compared to normal trips?
I found porn + masturbation to increase attachment. I think it's the same attachment that makes you want to cling to life hard and don't want to let go. And given how psychedelics is a substance that makes you die. I think porn and masturbation increases the resistance during the trip.
Or did you still have a good trip?
For me, it seems like everytime I look at porn, the feeling that I am "bad" is set and it doesn't need to be hours of watching porn, but just failing to resist temptation and giving in also give the same feeling. Also it seems abstaining for long doesn't seem to change anything. So if abstaining doesn't do anything, what can I do?
I was watching documentary on eleusinian mysteries. I think they definitely knew a lot more about psychedelics than we do. I think the whole community support and the dancing, chanting, lights, etc sort of like support the inner experience well. I think this is what is missing in our culture. We have to take these substances in secrecy and be anxious about it and look crazy and have a bad trip.
I was watching a documentary on elusinian mysteries. It says they used to fast for a day and then break the fast with psychs. I took my first lsd dose (200ug) in the morning of my fast. I had the feeling of dying kick in towards sunset. Looking back on this, i think you would have very different experience if you completed the fast and broke the fast with the psychs. Has anyone done it like this before?
It seems like initiates in the elusinian mysteries always describe darkness before reaching the light. Does it mean you are supposed to get terrible trips? I have read that people describe that a low dose like 100ug lsd gives them good trips while a higher dose gives them terrible ones.
How was your first experience? Did you get depressed after the trip?