I got used properly last night ☺️
After spending the last few days desperately posting here, hoping I’d find someone to use me, I finally got anally raped and had my cunt wrecked last night.
We met at a hotel, I was instructed to keep a pillowcase on my head the whole time, so I never knew what he looked like. I never knew his name. either. All I knew was that he is almost double my age and intended on hurting me.
I was already dripping wet when he came in as I had been touching myself thinking about what was going to happen to me. He spoke to me in a way that fucked with my head and used my deadname constantly like it was nothing. He made fun of how wet my cunt was, how it was already throbbing before he had touched me. He made me wear a blindfold and put plugs in my ears so I couldn’t hear much of anything. He then made me gag myself with my own socks, knowing that getting anal rape would be painful. Which it was.
He made me move to the edge of the bed so my ass was hanging off the side. With all his weight and no warning, he started pushing his dick into my unstretched ass. It hurt so fucking bad, I could feel it going in further and further as he put more and more weight into me. Each millimeter forcing my ass open more and more, until his whole length was in me. I got too loud at some point, even with the gag causing him to push my head down into the mattress. It was hard to breath inside the pillowcase, it felt so hard to breath, so overwhelming and I felt truly violated. But I have never been so turned on and my cunt never so wet and drippy. Little did I know it was just the start of my abuse.
I haven’t put anything in my pussy for about a year now, and I have never been more scared when I felt the top of a whisk pushing at the entrance of my cunt. I thought there was no way it would fit. But he made it fit and in no time he was forcefully fucking my rape tunnel with the cooking utensil. He was unrelenting and I was in so much pain, but I’m a good girl who gets off on being hurt so I didn’t stop him.
My cunt ended up bleeding and dribbling pussy juices everywhere after this so I was made to lay on a towel the rest of the night. I felt so embarrassed that I had started to bleed, like I was an untrained whore who needed more practice. He mentioned it looked like I was on my period, something as a trans guy I hadn’t experienced in years. I felt mortified.
The whole time he fucked with my mind, referring to me as a girl, a boy, a slut, a whore, whatever came to mind. My brain started working less the more he used me. At one point he left me to touch myself whilst he ignored me, then he told me I was doing it wrong. That I was masterbating like girls did, so he showed me how to jerk off my clit like a boy since I wanted to be one. I felt so embarrassed and stupid the entire time. I don’t remember how many times I came throughout the night, I lost track of time, I remember cumming once whilst he described the ways he could kidnap me, tie me up in his boot, drive me somewhere secluded to snuff me, but then deciding that going through that hassle for a slut like me wasn’t worth it. He fucked my cunt with a dildo. Made me fuck myself with a dildo. He spanked me, he whipped my ass with a charging cable. He grabbed me, gripped my ass. Made me pose myself for him to see. I felt truly used and objectified. Dumb and stupid.
The whole time I wanted so badly for him to fuck my cunt. But he never did. I would’ve done absolutely anything for him to fuck and fill my pussy up with his cum but he never did. I was so fucking desperate, I swear I would’ve done anything in that moment. It was torture honestly. I felt like my life’s goal was to feel him inside me, and that it was my fault I was too pathetic and worthless for that to happen. I wanted to be better. I need to be better to be worthy of his dick inside me and I will be.
So much more happened after the main part of our play but I’ll keep that for me and my filthy mind to cum to over the next few weeks until I hopefully see him again.