I love watching myself suck on a dildo and act like a pornstar! (18f)
I posted earlier, but my phone had a total meltdown and I lost all of my data, which sucks...
I've never really had any friends. My little brother and I have always been close, and he's been my best friend my whole life, but I've never really managed to make any friends at school. My way of coping with it has been watching porn. So a lot of my idols and the people who I look up to, are pornstars. I love the way they dress, the flirty way they talk, how their bodies look, it's all so cool in my opinion. So as soon as I turned eighteen, I got breast implants and started wearing more makeup, trying to be more like the pornstars I love so much.
I love filming myself sucking on my dildo. Watching it afterwards feels so amazing, it feels like I'm watching a totally different person. I also love doing photoshoots of myself in skimpy clothes. I'm actually really proud of the pictures and videos I make. They look professional and they're honestly way better than a lot of the porn I watch. When I watch what I've made, I feel like I'm an actual pornstar. I might send some stuff to some studios after I graduate highschool, but I haven't decided yet. So maybe I'll be the next big pornstar haha.